cerebro

hey badr,

I read your entry, don't think your forgotten.

your not.

I feel bad for our relationship. I dunno why, now i feel as though i never loved you at all (as harsh as that sounds) but i did feel something for you, I'm just not sure to what the extent was.

I do want to meet up with you, I want to be friends. I honestly do.

however, I also don't want that complication atm. not with the problems with my parents, not with TEE looming so close, not with the concern of uni, not with me starting to deal with my sexual abuse. I just coudln't take it. I'd be at breaking point.

I know that sounds harsh, I know this whole email is harsh. I never ever wanted to hurt you, or hurt you now, and I feel even now, not worthy of being your friends, coz I feel i caused you so much grief. I feel I've cause you so much pain, and not answered the questions you've prolly wanted answers to. I honestly don't know what to say though.

I feel ashamed for not remembering your birthday, I honestly forgot it.

I honestly feel that you shouldn't speak to me again, not because i don't want to, but because I feel i could never be your friend because i've cause you so much pain. Friends don't do that to eachother, and I did.

I dunno what else to say.

--Lisa