celtic_cyclops

Thought I better use the work computer to do an update because apparently it will take another 2 weeks to put the new tower together.

I am going well at the moment. I am so busy with work that I don't get time to wallow. I find that when I am in the usual routine, it doesn't hit me until the time of the day I would usually spend with Cheryl - at night after Emily goes to sleep and in the morning before work. There is always at least 1 episode of crying each day but certainly no clinical depression.

I came in to work the previous Sunday but could not concentrate at all. I ended up driving out to the cemetary.

I feels unreal at times, like a movie or TV show, with Cheryl just off stage and due to make a dramatic return any time. But it won't happen.

It also feels strange that things keep on going. They haven't stopped or been suspended. Emily is blossoming at kindy. I am doing new things. I find it difficult to grasp how there can be a history without Cheryl in it.

With any luck, I should make Cleverthing's show Saturday night although I don't know what to wear. I sort of stood out at the SG show last April - bald, solid Gen X in an orange shirt in a sea of emo's.

Thanks to everyone who left a comment last time. Hopefully the new riug will be completed sooner rather than later so I can get back to in person.