You look amazing, the new tattoo is fuckin awesome. I find it hard to believe you have a hard time finding a male creature able to bear you. (although I have the same problem finding a female creature that can bear me, I'm kind of a dick (well I can be))
I thnk its great that you want a dog. I would like to have a pet but I'm so busy with work and actvities outside of work that I don't think I would have the time to pay enough attention to it. I'm doing good just to take care of myself. lol
A wolf in you ? Here is a great song from a cult band from Los Angeles. Dedicated to you 
"It means death or Liberty..."
Better to die on your feet than live on your knees.
I always say what's more important than the events and circumstances of our lives would be how we choose to respond to them.