OMG, do NOT blame yourself for this. and make sure he understands that it has nothing to do with him. it's prolly cuz you brought it up recently in your journal and, unwillingly, it has taken a front seat in your mind at the moment. i can't speak from experience here, but if you feel that wonderful and comfortable, maybe you should tell him about it and talk to him. it might be good to share it with someone close like that since you couldn't with your mom. also, if he knows about it and understands, he will prolly be more comprehending and sympathetic in regards to anything like that that happens again. he sounds like a wonderful man, maybe it help things if you could bring yourself to trust him and explain it to him.
i dunno if this sounds plausible to you, but i just want to help you and make you feel better, k?
I think what you did was good. I think that maybe you let him into you more than you know. That sort of intamacy is great. You let down some walls but mistook it for something else. I am guessing here but maybe you were dealing with those emotions in order to move on. My last gf went through a similar experience and it took alot, I mean alot, for her just to be comfortable enough to have sex. Sharing those feelings is a step in the right direction. Perhaps your body was just saying, yes you can share this and still be allright. but what do I know, I am only male. you are a good person and you did nothing to deserve what happened, always remember that. Other than that, you are a beautiful woman, a great SG with a great set. You should have kept the converses on though and lost everything else but that is okay
i don't know you but the sweet TigerAngel said you were having a tough time and now i see what she meant!
i'm sure you didn't ruin anything...how could you control what you were feeling...strong emotions and feelings good or bad have to come out whether we want them to or not...i'm sure he'll understand and come to realize that it had nothing to do with him...hang in there *hugs*
