Your sketches are beautiful!! I'm sorry that you have to part with Kiwi that must be really heartbreaking.. Sounds like you really need to get out of where your living get the eff out of there..
The art is awesome, and I hope you get a much happier living situation soon. As for a bad memory, sometimes I think I invented having a bad memory, but other times, I can't quite remember. At least I can confidently state that I won't forget you! Seriously.
Hey, I can really relate to your sadness over Kiwi. My cat, Widget, is likewise 15 and black, and I don't live with him anymore either. It's sad as his liver is failing and he has to have a potassium free diet. He's so thin now that when he lies down he looks 2D. Still really friendly and loving though, he's kinda half-cat, half-dog in terms of character.
Anyway, sorry to hear you're so broke. It's no fun having no money, I know.