brittymon

so i deleted my web cam album because i was fucking sick of arguing with people about how shitty i look! i mean i put that up because i wanted to be me. but NOOO i cant even do that without people trying to harass me over it or just pick on me or pick fights with me about it! obviously im NOT happy with my body in general! it has failed me TIME AND TIME AGAIN! so its kinda a touchy subject for me considering! goddammit i cant believe that i cant even share myself.. share how i look now or my hair or whatnots...nope... its gone now. i am sick of everyone trying to fucking convince me of whatever the fuck you think! obviously im a VERY suborn person who doesn't give a flying fuck what u think! i appreciate complements and nice comments and all but when you start trying to change my personal views because of what u can see in a tiny dark web cam photo. when i see and feel me everyday...i KNOW you DONT! so shut the fuck up! im am seriously on edge because the doctors WONT give me my fucking medicine or let alone see me! the way the clinic works is IMPOSSIBLE! ive been without bloody strips and insulin and my quality of life is DRASTICALLY going DOWN! they dont seem to understand the LONGER i go like this the LESS FUNCTIONAL i will be! Jesus fuck! and they yell at me and tell me that there not gonna see me! the free clinic!! assholes! the hospitals hounding me for fucking money! so i cant go there now! FUCK FUCKING MEDICAL AND THERE STUPID CANCELING ME FOR BEING 21!!!! WHAT THE FUCK??? im NOT not Diabetic any more sense im in between the ages of 21 and 65!! what the hell is wrong with this fucking world?! its SO much easier being dead. the hard part is getting there..uhhh i dont wanna feel that again...dyeing really sucks. well the part just before ur dead that is...
im stuck in this horrible place ......