you can see who cigs is now, he isn't a smoke haha. ya schedulling conflicts, whatever. I think I just keep expecting things to fail. I have to stop or it will become a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I am busy I guess, but I try to keep it focussed, and take my time. Pacing is important for me or I get overwhlemed. I can't do the keep-so-busy-I-won't-think-about-other-things it sounds like you're doing.
Sorry bout the grandparents. I guess that is what's keeping you busy right now. I have no words of wisdom for you either in that area. My grandmother here (Canada) is so far gone, she left us a long time ago really, mentally. So I mourned her years earlier, the loss of the real her. Now she is just a shell of a person. It makes me sad.
I am a horrible grandaughter, I have a hard time going to the home to visit. Too much like a hospital, I hate hospitals! I get super stressed and edgy. I don't think that having people live past a certain point, when the quality of living has dropped too far, does any justice. Especially when, if they could express their wishes, they would ask to not live in such a way, as my grandmiother requested before.
But she got to see three generations, so I guess that is good.
As a male, always time for children if you reeeeeally wanted. Get off your wheel.
i'm on the mouse wheel as well. i need to step off it. and really live life. sometimes i think i am, and then other days, like today, i wake up realizing i'm just passing time.
Forgive me if I express absolute amazement over what you are having to deal with right now. It sounds as if you are being emotionally and physically taxed to the limit. Taking care of two elderly people is a tremendous, tremendous responsibility. My immediate concern is: DO YOU HAVE HELP? Any other family members? Professional caregivers? You cannot adequately care for your lovely grandmothers if you are totally and completely overwhelmed. It is essential that YOU have a support-system, as well. Though what you are doing is a beautiful and noble thing, you must try your best to ensure that your happiness is not sacrificed on the altar of family obligation. I'm sure your grandmothers would want for their beloved grandson a full, satisfying life.
That little mouse wheel can be a pretty tough thing to escape, but not impossible. You still have plenty of time, my friend.
Thank you for your kind words regarding the loss of my sweet boy, Newman. Death is such an inevitable part of life, and yet we are so seldom prepared for it. *sigh*
Take care, guy. Let me know how things are going with you.
I am busy I guess, but I try to keep it focussed, and take my time. Pacing is important for me or I get overwhlemed. I can't do the keep-so-busy-I-won't-think-about-other-things it sounds like you're doing.
Sorry bout the grandparents. I guess that is what's keeping you busy right now. I have no words of wisdom for you either in that area. My grandmother here (Canada) is so far gone, she left us a long time ago really, mentally. So I mourned her years earlier, the loss of the real her. Now she is just a shell of a person. It makes me sad.
I am a horrible grandaughter, I have a hard time going to the home to visit. Too much like a hospital, I hate hospitals! I get super stressed and edgy. I don't think that having people live past a certain point, when the quality of living has dropped too far, does any justice. Especially when, if they could express their wishes, they would ask to not live in such a way, as my grandmiother requested before.
But she got to see three generations, so I guess that is good.
As a male, always time for children if you reeeeeally wanted. Get off your wheel.