A few years ago I met a woman. From the first time I laid my eyes on her I knew I wanted to get to know her. She was beautiful, but not in the I just want to have a hot night in bed with you. She carried herself so confidently, she walked and smiled and I still swear time slowed down like it does in those cheesy romantic comedies. Her hair was in an unkept bun and had one strand the fell on her face perfectly. Pure and utter beauty! I walked around that place like it was mine and no one could touch me, a chip on my shoulder so to speak. Once she came in I instantly felt inferior, her eyes met mine and my throat got horse, my hands were drenched in sweat. Took me a few weeks to gain the courage to spark a conversation, I knew once we started talking we would click. She was smart and clever, she held my attention better than anyone has. I could feel a unique connection to her.
I used our mutual friends and a trip to Busch Gardens to get us our first opportunity to hang out outside of work. I've always been shy and reserved towards women, especially ones of this caliber. Pretty positive I couldn't get three or four whole sentences worth of conversation with her. Finally we got our chance to be alone, walking back from a cheesy basketball carnival game. My first chance to make a good enough impression to make her want more from me. My instincts resorted back to my elementary days where I just poke fun and make snide remarks to her. Leaving that night I thought for sure I blew it. The next couple days were kind of a blur, we texted all day everyday, at work and at home. My mind was in a trance, she took ahold of me quick, fast, and hard. I couldn't get enough of her, beautiful and smart, diverse and cultured. This woman had me on a ride I wasn't sure I was truly ready for but I sure as hell wasn't turning back now.
After a date to a little hole in the wall tequila bar my mind was wrapped around her. She invites me over for a movie date on her super small couch. Being this close to her in a confined space had my nerves rattled and at an all time high. The night slowly progresses and things lead to the most passionate and stomach turning kiss. Her lips were sensual and soft, her hands on my body made every muscle tighten, my heart was pounding so hard I know you could have seen it through my chest.
A little trial at story telling through a keyboard. I kind of just wanted to get out that this woman through the next few years and still to this day has a hold on me. I fell in love so easily with her. She came to be my best friend and a role model for me, I grew so much with her next to me. She pushes something inside me that drives me to be better, gives me the confidence where I have always lacked. Listening, observing, learning from her every move. I then and now still look up to her like a child does a superhero. Physically flawless to me, she is everything that is perfect. Her walk, her laugh, her touch, her presence. The endless characteristics I could list that makes her everything I want in someone. I've came up through the years sheltering my feelings and masking my emotions, with her nothing was a secret. I wanted to share everything I could with her. She was that one thing that I needed at the right time, that one relief in my life when I didn't feel like I had one. My first true friend, unconditionally support to be who I wanted.
I guess this was my way of thanking her. To express gratitude for everything she has done and taught me. You opened my world to experiences that I wouldn't have appreciated as much if they were shared with anyone else. I still spend nights and days with only you on my mind, sometimes in grief for not being enough for you. Other times just reliving old times. The days spent holding each other watching subtitled movies. Holidays and road trips. Wearing pants too small in public and the endless times where I felt pure happiness. I love you with all my heart, I wouldn't change anything about what we have been through together because it has all brought me to this moment. Whether this moment is clarity or finally moving on isn't clear at this point but I do know I won't ever go one day in the rerst of my life being thankful that you came into my life. To my best friend and only true love. I love you.......
I used our mutual friends and a trip to Busch Gardens to get us our first opportunity to hang out outside of work. I've always been shy and reserved towards women, especially ones of this caliber. Pretty positive I couldn't get three or four whole sentences worth of conversation with her. Finally we got our chance to be alone, walking back from a cheesy basketball carnival game. My first chance to make a good enough impression to make her want more from me. My instincts resorted back to my elementary days where I just poke fun and make snide remarks to her. Leaving that night I thought for sure I blew it. The next couple days were kind of a blur, we texted all day everyday, at work and at home. My mind was in a trance, she took ahold of me quick, fast, and hard. I couldn't get enough of her, beautiful and smart, diverse and cultured. This woman had me on a ride I wasn't sure I was truly ready for but I sure as hell wasn't turning back now.
After a date to a little hole in the wall tequila bar my mind was wrapped around her. She invites me over for a movie date on her super small couch. Being this close to her in a confined space had my nerves rattled and at an all time high. The night slowly progresses and things lead to the most passionate and stomach turning kiss. Her lips were sensual and soft, her hands on my body made every muscle tighten, my heart was pounding so hard I know you could have seen it through my chest.
A little trial at story telling through a keyboard. I kind of just wanted to get out that this woman through the next few years and still to this day has a hold on me. I fell in love so easily with her. She came to be my best friend and a role model for me, I grew so much with her next to me. She pushes something inside me that drives me to be better, gives me the confidence where I have always lacked. Listening, observing, learning from her every move. I then and now still look up to her like a child does a superhero. Physically flawless to me, she is everything that is perfect. Her walk, her laugh, her touch, her presence. The endless characteristics I could list that makes her everything I want in someone. I've came up through the years sheltering my feelings and masking my emotions, with her nothing was a secret. I wanted to share everything I could with her. She was that one thing that I needed at the right time, that one relief in my life when I didn't feel like I had one. My first true friend, unconditionally support to be who I wanted.
I guess this was my way of thanking her. To express gratitude for everything she has done and taught me. You opened my world to experiences that I wouldn't have appreciated as much if they were shared with anyone else. I still spend nights and days with only you on my mind, sometimes in grief for not being enough for you. Other times just reliving old times. The days spent holding each other watching subtitled movies. Holidays and road trips. Wearing pants too small in public and the endless times where I felt pure happiness. I love you with all my heart, I wouldn't change anything about what we have been through together because it has all brought me to this moment. Whether this moment is clarity or finally moving on isn't clear at this point but I do know I won't ever go one day in the rerst of my life being thankful that you came into my life. To my best friend and only true love. I love you.......
~Seyval