bradalock

I am writing this just to have it open, thank god no one reads this.
I know I am weak. I don't want to deal with anything. She can kill me me with a look or the lack of one.
I was trying to be sober. 12 hours. Weak. I have a feeling this is long from resovled, this pain will be here for awhile. She's fine, I know it. Now she is just fucking with me.
It was all perfect.