If you met me when I started Sucide Girls, I never would have thought I would become such an empowered women is beyond me. I truly thank all you for the guidence, love and support through my growth with Sucide Girls and my future goals. The lovely women who introduced me to SG and all the girls was @shaine. This womens guidence and push for me to become an SG, when I can honestly say I had never thought I could be one of those beauties by any chance. Especailly after growning up and following all the girls. With my first two new sets "A NEW HOPE " & "OBSESSIONS" Lets just say, I wouldn't be on here if it wasnt for @shaine
Shooting my second set I got to meet the most beautiful and big hearted women @skella who since day one have adored and loved more than anything. She is such a big inspiration! With all of her sets and new things shes doing with sg and her own stuff I look up to her so much. She is a truly talented hustler! xoxoxox Wifey life. I love you lil blue.
At this point I had met the man I fell so deeply in love with. I was happy I was working lots. (keep this in mind)
Okay lets get back on track with sets.
Now the next photographer I love to bits! Beyond SG I ve shot with him for magazines and even videos. He is not only a friend but since we met and started shooting, he truly makes you feel so confident and beautiful and captures only the best shots. Plus hes such a good vibe and amazingly talented on so many level! @sergiochaotik I love you forever! Here was my third set
" VIEWS "
The next set was shot by @the_evil_eye . Meeting him was such a fun experince because we not only shot the set but we filled a promo video for it! We had such a blast and that day he was shooting with the gorgeous lil @lovesick , whom I never expected to be sweeter than humanly possible. I hope we shoot together ;) " NO STRINGS ATTACHED " which ended up making me an offical Suicide Girl by giving me my first SET OF THE DAY ! Never geeked out so hard and was so truly amazed and grateful to have the set bought Oct 16th/17 (offically a SG) and was then front page Nov 2nd/17 .
Now I know this is getting a little long but please TRY and stay with me!
The mans I said I had fallen in love with, became even more of a dream come true I was in love, we got a house, he supported me, I got my puppy Boba Fett. It all seem so perfect. Well that unfortunately changed into a very aggressive mentally abusing hateful relationship that broke me. I gave up on everything it seems. I didn' t feel my worth, I hated myself, the love of my life wanted to live together and put me down and I would fight for my love for him, what we had. At last drugs and extreme alcholism changes people drasticly. Once the words turned into stealing the fight was over. As said as it is, I still love him, even after everything...at least what he was, we were. With the Toronto SG shootfest coming up, I had all the excitment in the world but just didn't feel good about myself, in anyway. I did what I do best, thats to create a wall that I block the pain and become even more Booba and let no one see.
The shootfest was absolutley a dream! Fun location and such a solid crew! DID I MENTION THAT @dojikko BECAME AN OFFICAL SG from her drop dead set shot by @lady . Looking at the photo of all of us its wicked cause we are all SGS now.
(I was still a hopeful cause the shootfest was in the summer and I wasnt FP till Nov)
Going into this shoot fest and meeting @lady @smashbase @aurralee @dojikko and of course seing @skella !!
Seeing these sets floored me. I was legit in tears when over them both. As I didn't see what the camera captured . I was in such a dark space in my head and home. The escape of this shootfest was such a much need release and drive of who I am and want to be!
"BEAMING" shot by @lady was such a truly big learning experience that I will never forget. She taught me so much more about modeling and shooting with Sg. I can't thank her enough for the tips of toe points and arched backs and the toughest body positions to hold and trust me she makes you work, but then you see the photos and youre like WWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW!
And then I shot with her amazingly handsome mans @smashbase
" ULTRAVIOLET" which after two days of being live in MR was picked for SET OF THE DAY!!!!! JULY 12/18
I've grown so much because of SG and you all have saved me many times with your love and support! I want to thank every person on here, all the sgs and hopefuls and all the photographers!
xo Booba