blueskys

My new healthy eating is going o.k. The only things that have slipped through the net are since I had to go out on saturday to a leaving party I had a few bits there. I`ll be sad to see those guys go.



I didn`t get the scholarship which is really depressing. I really feel that since University everything has gone wrong. I fucked up the relationship with the only person I cared about, I did really badly on my degree, I didn`t get into the Police when I applied, now I didn`t get this thing. So if I ever seem like I know the hell what I`m doing, you`ll know I don`t.

On the other hand I am now free to look for other things and spend my time as I will. I really feel that this is the time where if I`m going to do something now is the time I have to do it. If I`m going to start a buisness or move to another country or meet the right person or get the right job. I don`t knwo what the fuck it is I`m gonna do, but I know it`s got to be something big. Because you know life is really boring if you don`t do anything exiting. I would hate to be in a job I didn`t like for ever. I would do this job for a while longer if I A) had any chance of career progression B) got more money or C) was more intellectually stimulated. I really feel like going to a hive of cultural activity, like Montreal or Chicago, having been in the wilderness for these past two years.

I want to stop spending my money of pointless things, like the other day I bought the starwars trilogy, I mean that is cool but I don`t need it at all. I do however need money in it`s raw form to travel or otherwise survive when I`m in transition. Stop buying technology!



"don`t feel bad for me,
I want you to know,
deep in the cell of my heart I will be glad to go..."

(Morrissey)

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