bloodstorm

My English Professor has given me an awesome opportunity. We are in the poetry section now, lol...and he said if I send him a poem, he might use it as one of our options for the poetry essay.

After much revision and thought, and insanity....I sent him this (What Do Ya Think??????):

Nothingness

Ripped and stripped
You've left me exposed
For what I am
And how I feel inside

As you laughed
My heart cried
These innermost thoughts
Now devoured by rejection
Still linger
Taunting, reminding
How I am unfit, unworthy

When you denied
My soul abandoned me
This body is now defenseless
Open to your scrutiny
This small moment
Becomes my painful forever

As dark thoughts take me over
Breathing seems wrong
Hurt I am, broken indeed
The battle you started
It is not yet won
I am afraid this battle
Has only just begun

As feelings of doubt
Drown all logic
Thoughts of you remain
To tie me up with fear

Overcome with reality
I stop to breathe
There is hope
I must fight back

I will not let you have it
It is not yours to take
I cannot let you have it
This decision, it's mine to make

And here you thought
The victory was yours
Look closer, deeper
In here it seems
It was I that won
For I can breathe
And I can see the sun

I am worthy
My life will go on
I'll continue breathing
I know I am strong
Strong enough to heal
These wounds that you caused
Strong enough to mend
Nothingness into being