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with masked faces and latex finger tips
they laid me down to stab at me and demand more than I can every give
with terminology I have never heard
and pictures I have never seen
she stabs at me repetitively always on the count of three
strapping down the only one
hinting to the madness combe
alcohol smell fills the room
cleanliness turning into bloodiness
I am the same
I am me
I am in this
I am this
I am this
I am this
change my name to medical results
X-ray into cancer we want you to see this all
medicine and medicine and medicine and medicine and pain killers
this is this inside of me
festering and growing into a name I have given
spreading all over me

i am stronger than this

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