bigman316

so i thought i would write something new...even if i don't really think i have anything to write about. i know the past several days i have been feeling quite depressed. i think there are several reasons for that; stress at work, stress in my personal life, upset with various people in my life, and probably some other stuff i can't think of. the main thing i have been dwelling on is how many people that are supposed to be my friend, simply don't act like it. i have people that i am supposed to be "such close friends with" that i haven't heard from in weeks, in a couple of cases months. then they have the nerve to get on my case when i do call, because they have not heard from me. i have one person who emailed me over the weekend saying how they are on vacation all this week, i said great, get in touch with me on my days off, and we can get together. haven't heard from that person either. this past week there have been times when i really, really, needed someone to talk to, instead i am locked in my room, in the dark, depressed, doing things with razor blades that i am really not supposed to be doing. how can people just abandon people like that??? i don't know... i have made friends with a few people here in sg land, and i am closer to those people than some others in my life, some of them, by the way, are relatives. i guess i should be thankful, that even though i may not be getting much out of my friends right next to me in maryland i have friends that i have made here that are super nice, super cool, super sweet, and just all around good people, and for those people, and i hope like heck you know who you are when/if you read this, i am glad i have you in my life, because some others have chosen to just kind of forget about me. not a happy blog, sorry....maybe i can be more upbeat next time.