WOW! My baby sister is a pole dance/fitness instructor but I highly doubt I will every see her pole dancing to christian music. That's just a flat out odd combination.
I had a roommate who was a stripper. I always thought, being godless as I am, that I was leading her TO "God" in getting away FROM stripping. Apparently, I stand corrected.
I want to do derby like nobody's business. I was a kick fucking ass backwards skater with comb in pocket my entire teenage life. I sort of live for my roller derby lust. It is my sickness that prevents me. But ask Sam, I am ALL about being a roller girl.
It is autoimmune disease - a combined effort of such - yet undisclosed - after a decade(fer crissakess). But you are right - it is more my fear of succeeding than my fear of failing. And you are a super rock star example.
I like that, the sentiment that if you are going to hurt anyway may as well enjoy it in the process. Our schedules simply won't allow for something like this at this juncture, but I do think within the next couple of years it is highly possible. The community would be a welcome diversion for sure.