I’ve got 13 safety pins all in a row
I shoved in my left arm just as straight as you please
Neatly piercing skin and flesh to see the blood flow
Making great effort to feel without falling to my knees
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There’s one for pleasure one for pain
Which go hand in hand
Round and round and round again
Through thick and thin heavy and light forever to stand
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I’ve got 13 safety pins in and uber straight line
Causing one specific feeling to make another leave
I promise really honest truly I’m okay I’m good I’m fine
So perfectly awesomely okay I didn’t even bleed on my sleeve
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I’ve got one for the sunshine
I’ve got one for the rain
Because everything under them will eventually be mine
Because everytime I turn around I feel the same again
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I’ve got 13 safety pins neatly dripping red
Rivulet upon river freely flowing
Trying and running from the thoughts within my head
Thinking and idealing but never really knowing
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There’s one for my family and one for my friends
There’s one for me and eachother
Proof that nothing ever really ends
Always and never one way or another
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I’ve got 13 safety pins in a divine column
Sore pulsing discolored bruised
Changing continually like leaves in autumn
Desperate to be used
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One for the children one for the elderly
But not a single drop for the ages in between
The extremes on the spectrum where the caring needs to be
Everyone between that is completely utterly mean
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There are 13 safety pins meticulously in my arm
I put them there intentionally on purpose
There’s no one else to harm
The blame is completely mine and not the slightest surplus
One is there for my hunger one is there for my thirst
To take and separate my wants and my needs
Sometimes I don’t know which is worst
The emptiness on itself constantly feeds
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13 glorious safety pins glowing with my love
Shining stunningly with the light of my heart
Shimmering with the devotion of something from above
Never ending never waning because there was no start
Just one that’s there for life and death and rebirth
An endless cycle of compound negligence
A story told so many times it’s lost all worth
Dealing things unfathomable selfish intelligence
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I slid 13 safety pins with so much love and care
Nimbly through muscle skipping across vein
Tender touches mean so much fingers through hair
Go too deep and one will burst as a main
There’s obviously one for you and one that’s just for me
Now for the record I never did the best I could
No more excuses I made them all loosely
I’ve lost and thrown away I refuse to do any good