avaadora

I am slowly trying to get back into posting and interacting more on this site. Its so hard though. not sure where to start or where i fit in? i feel like the new girl at school all over again.

Iv been dealing with allot of personal problems (emotional well-being.) and i feel as if finally the light is shinning through these dark looming clouds. All thanks to a new mix of crazy meds! lol. a while back i was forced to admit to myself along with to other that i am in fact bipolar (bipolar 2) while i always knew i was admitting it to my husband and friends and family was extremely hard. it has such a stigma surrounding it!

Now the hard part is fixing myself and letting the past go and figuring out a way to not be so hard on myself.
my biggest problem is accepting complements about my personal self. When some one says "you're a great mother" or "you are a good person" and so on... i just feel sick to my stomach! hearing people say good things about me makes me sick. and i just cannot figure out why. i truly do think i am a good person, a great mom, and a loving wife. but i cannot stand to hear it from other people. its nuts

Now to the good stuff, and a little inside look at me and my kid... enjoy