some days I just want to say fuck it... tired of the relentless pace of life... the same old and the same old... I want something extraordinary to happen in my life... I thought this last week that was my ex sending me a plea... confessing that he thinks we made a mistake because he can't stop thinking about me and all the good that I brought into his and his son's life... and I thought wow, can this really be happening? do people actually get second chances?... well now I am left wondering if people are really meant to get second chances... or for that matter, should relationships get second chances... I moved to a small town for this guy... was his wifey and housekeeper and personal chef and confidant and lover and friend and everything... I was the mother to his son (as his real mom is a low life)... and now... all I have is reawakened heart ache... nights where I lie awake thinking of him... of them... and of course he only mentions getting back together once I have moved on with my life and made plans... plans to be a better me... but no... fuck fuck fuck... and here I am bitching... which I hate doing... especially about him... le sigh
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asmi:
Oracle - thanks! I also love the peacock tattoos (as I love peacock feathers)... and yes they did hurt like a son of a bitch... I first had them done a couple years ago... two hours each foot and I hit my pain tolerance around the third hour... just had them touched up about a month ago and they took bout an hour each foot... and I have to say it hurt more the second time... normally I fall asleep when getting ink done
love the pain
love the pain
musicguy9:
I guess there are always exceptions, but in general, if it didn't work out before, it likely won't again in my opinion. A wise man says "the best predictor of future behavior is past behavior". What's in the past is best left in the past if you ask me.