arinnikole

My life has been really crazy lately. Is it normal to just not want to have sex anymore especially when my boyfriend and I used to be sex addicts? My acid reflux or whatever else it may be has gotten so much worse lately so a lot of the times I haven't wanted to have sex because I was in so much pain and then it seems like the days I was feeling alright he had some reason we couldn't have sex. It's gotten to be over two weeks now since we've had sex and it seems like the longer and longer it's been the less interested I am and am starting to feel uncomfrotable attempting to have sex with him again. I don't know what to do. It's like when we actually have the chance to I subconsciously start a fight or something with him or something he says pisses me off, which makes me not want to sleep with my own boyfriend. I don't know what is wrong with me. I still care about him and the sex has always been amazing between us but now I find myself wondering what the hell is wrong with me or ?? Maybe this is a sign our relationship isn't going where I want it to and I'm withdrawing myself from him or maybe we;ve gotten too close and that freaked me out because every time I get close and comfortable with someone they leave... This just makes me so mad. I just wish I knew what to do. And I think because we stopped having sex we resent each other. Things just have been weird. But then again, I just lost a close friend to a tragic accident, I'm nervous as fuck about taking my State Boards this Monday to get my license to be a nurse, my daughter has adhd and we've been switching her around on all different meds trying to find one that works and she's been really out of control??? Maybe it just is stress induced... Blah.

On a better note, my love Morgan (Best friend) and I are going out to dinner tonight and I couldn;t be happier because we haven't seen each other since we graduated nursing school which was at the end of August. We're probably going to AppleBee's or Chili's to eat some good food and drink some margaritas because I sure need some time out of this house and my Mom has been nice enough to give me a break and keep Sage overnight until later today.



Supposed to be taking notes in class.. haha.


I actually miss school soo damn much and I never thought I'd say it but it was one of the best years of my life. I really learned a lot and it changed me as a person. It opened my eyes to a lot of things. It made me appreciate people so much more and now I love what I do.

Our fantastic instructors/teachers!

Me & "Momma" taking notes...

And Graduation pictures......






And more pictures...


My Babi in school making Halloween Spiders