sleep............sleep..........sleep...........oh how i hate you so much.....
you are such a double edged sword for me.....on one hand I desiree to have you take over my body and mind and allow me some peace from the worl that i live everyday....on the other hand the peace that i desire with a passon is always interupted by the most horrific manifistations.......theses dreams are so much a reaity to me that at times i struggle to know what it the truth and what is just in my mind......When i finally wake from these nightmares i find my self so much more exhausted than before i tried to enter that peacefull world....I also find myself struggling to now that my life is fine and its not what i see in my head............
if only if only.....i could just shut my brain and body down and enter a complete darkness when i want to sleep..........
you are such a double edged sword for me.....on one hand I desiree to have you take over my body and mind and allow me some peace from the worl that i live everyday....on the other hand the peace that i desire with a passon is always interupted by the most horrific manifistations.......theses dreams are so much a reaity to me that at times i struggle to know what it the truth and what is just in my mind......When i finally wake from these nightmares i find my self so much more exhausted than before i tried to enter that peacefull world....I also find myself struggling to now that my life is fine and its not what i see in my head............
if only if only.....i could just shut my brain and body down and enter a complete darkness when i want to sleep..........