aperfectkenny

i haven't been on here in a bit. i've been on the road yet again with my band. i really miss home. i miss my new friend julia back home. i'm glad i finally am/was getting to know her. i've met a few people while on the road and it's been nice so far. part of me just wishes i wasn't running around all the time. part of me wish i could be in one place long enough to get a relationship with someone going. something good. i don't really know if anyone reads this thing. i haven't really made many friends yet either. i read my copy of "the perks of being a wallflower" for like the 100th time today. i feel like i just want to participate as well. i want a "sam" to love no matter what and eventually have her kiss me and it be wonderful. all this is idealistic. i'm really trying to focus on a few things about myself as a person that i think need work. it's not really easy but change never is. i don't think i'm a bad person or i have problems. i just need a little work. i think we all do. i'm optimistic. tomorow we go to missouri. i've never been before so this should be interesting. we're playing some skate park. oh by the way... we played with armor for sleep tonight. that was certainly interesting them being as big of a band as they are. it was nice meeting them. i've never really listened to their music before but i enjoyed their set. i suppose they enjoyed ours as well since they asked for a cd. i won't be home until june and even then i think it's only one day. i wish i had someone to come home to. i don't intend for this to sound depressing because i'm not. just hopeful.