So many things have happened I really don't know where to begin. I guess I'll start with Christmas. Family came down to spend the day with me. It was nice exchanging gifts for the second year in my own home. Felt very adult and it was a happy simple time. Then new years came and spent it well to be honest I don't remember. Possibly spent it alone like how I normally do. A couple days went by work started back up and then I get the news on the 2nd that my cousin went missing. Told my boss that something was going on but I didn't want it to get around the office that I was going through a time. Now my cousin who went missing she was married but her first and brand new husband decided after 3 months of marriage to end things with her. Stuck her with an apartment she couldn't possibly afford in her own. Later that day I get the call saying the police found her body she had hung herself. Obviously I couldn't deal so I left work early. A friend at work texted and asked if I was okay so I told her what happened she was super supportive and it felt good having someone care for me and distract me from the tragedy. I go up for the funeral and just made me angry. When I came back I decided I wasn't going to mourn her but take all her advice and live how I want to. So I decide to drink with my friend and her two friends. Eventually it goes to being four of us to just us and we end up having sex. Which turns into us dating and we have been for four months. Now though it seems as though what kept us going is starting to fall apart and maybe it needs to but I think I've fallen for her and can't bring myself to tell her. Sometimes it feels like she has too and other times it feels like she could care less. Anyway though I'm back and that brings my update to a close.
