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antihero43

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Nov 10, 2015
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Well its been a few years, why not. In the past two years my life has flipped around. My fiance left me in April 2014. I'm happy she realized she wasn't in love before all the legal side was finalized but it blindsided me. I was crushed. The next year and a half I spent most of my free time getting drunk and stoned.

A year of that time I was in a codependent alcoholic relstionship with an emotionally traumatized and at times emotionally and physically abusive young women. When we met it was a summer drunk lust distraction from my pain I was going through. We both just wanted someone to love us. It was fun at first.

All that drinking made me go broke. I started to wake up hating my life and hating my choices. My feelings turned to a depression and it caused rifts in our relationship. I started to resent her alcoholism and how out of control it was. Mine was. We argued, we broke up, we got back together. We cycled like that for 6 months. I will never say she is a bad person, and I will never say I was a good one. I ended the relationship for good at the end of September.

I'm rebuilding myself. My confidence is shaken and hurt but it's on the rise. I'm back in the gym to try to reverse the damage I have caused in the past year and a half. I've cut my drinking even more, but it's a struggle to not go out and have a beer.

So yea that's what I've been up to. My roommates cat is pretty awesome. Think that's enough for now.

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