Sorry to hear things are feeling out of control. I hope you find the strength to get on top of things soon, I'm very fond of you, and I hate to see those nasty pharmaceutical companies making more money. I wish I could cuddle you and feed you spliffs until you couldnt help but smile. If you ever need to get away from everything, give me a shout and lets go on a crazy mission somewhere! and put that bum away or its gonna get slapped!
Well I can say with some confidence that bottom slapping and spliff rolling are two of my greatest skills, and I am always happy to share my talents!
There's nothing wrong with being a social outcast in my book. Not that I have such a book.
Seriously though, if you are ever in need of stoner distractions please do give me a shout! I hope you shift the flu soon too, I fully sumpathise there, I must have had it three times this season already! Can't believe your worrying about turning 21 either, I've got over a decade on you and all I've achieved is a flair for the forementioned bum fondling and herb smoking!
and put that bum away or its gonna get slapped! 
Prettyful <3