I may have quit smoking (cigarettes) over 6 years ago, but I adore this 50's inspired photo by Christian Saint! ♥ We were on set for my Inked Magazine shoot last year, and was waiting for the other model involved to finish prepping, so we decided to take a few shots while my hair was still pinned up for curing. I normally never take shots with my hair up, but I really enjoy this one! ^_^
Also, I've been exploring my 'alternate self' quite a bit lately, and I think I'm much happier for it. I'll explain: I've been spending more of my 'alone-time' at a few local gay bars, and going to more local drag shows, instead of just home alone playing Zelda Breath of the Wild (IT'S AMAZING). It's been giving me that second wind, that fresh breath of life I've been really needing lately. I can't wait to go again next week. I get so much joy from watching people do what they truly love, and seeing the show these girls puts on is just jaw dropping. Their beauty is DEVASTATING. Fuck me, I got to see Willam perform live (I can't get my videos to load, so here's one of my favorites. Don't watch if you can't handle fabulous, half-naked wo/men) in my home town a few weeks ago; I lived, died, and lived again. She touched my butt and told me she liked me. Year = made. I've been thinking about it a lot lately: Everything I've ever wanted to do with modeling, when I boil it down to it's core, it's just been me trying to find my own drag. I've never felt very 'girly' or feminine most of my life, and 'modeling' and performing is really a way for me explore my feminine side and be this fantasy-esque girly-girl. I love putting on a persona and becoming this other version of myself. But I've never taken it quite 'as far' as I've wanted to. I've always wanted to want to go full Trixie Mattel with my look, lol. I'm interested in exploring where things go from here. I'm excited. ♥
And please remember, if you're also an avid drag fan, go support your local queens! And tip! Well!!
My first attempt at blocking my brows out wasn't terrible! And now my extensive collection of lace-front wigs can finally be put to good use! My birthday is in a month and all I want is more wigs, lol. Also, I can't seem to embed my video clips form her performance that night, but she was amazing. ♥
