WOW! 
So your all dying to know what happened on the date, aren't you? 
I won't tell. 
Nah, just kidding. Oh, my God. I promised myself, I wouldn't fall head over heels for someone again. And yet I find myself doing it. This girl is great. I enjoy spending the time with her. On Friday we went to Jade's for about an hour, then we walked to Diablo, then from there we went to an after hours party, which turned out to be exactly where the party was just before New Years. Then after there, we went to Pano's and had something to eat. I didn't get home til 7am... 
But damn, I had a great night. My biggest concern is that she states, that she is attracted to me, as I am attracted to her, but she has this barrier up, and it confusess me. 
I know, she is trying to keep her distance, and I can not only respect that, but agree with it, because I will admit, I'm still a little shooken from my previous relationship. I do want this relationship to grow, but I am worried though that she may be a little to normal for me. I don't have a problem with it, but normal girls tend to have problems with MY lifestyle. I haven't told her about the cross dressing yet. I don't know when and how to bring it up. Any suggestions? 
So then on Saturday, we went to the movies, and saw Cronicles of Narnia, which I have to admit, I read the book, the movie was a great adaptation, but at points it felt like it was missing something. But it was good. If you never read the book, it would be good. I never did like the Massiac Story to it though. Anyways. We are going out again on Friday. I wanted to take her to Olive Garden for a Lunch Date, but we both work, and Phil and I are going to Toronto for the weekend, so I figured I squeeze her in before I go. I think she is worth it. Although, I better not piss her off, she is a 2nd star Black Belt in Tie Kwan Do. I wasn't nervous the first, but now, I am so nervous of what will be with us, and my biggest concern is that I will be to foreward and scare her off, but she does say that it would be a little easier if she wasn't so attracted to me. I'm a guy (duh!) so, being the not so bright Male that I am, what does that statement mean? Am I looking into something more? Or am I just filling a spot til she finds something better? AHHHHHHHHH! Why can't life be simple?
Devilishly Yours,
Pete
Ankh42
P.S.: There is a new pic of me, please give me your opinion. Do you like the one I have now, or do you think I should put the eyeliner one in?
So your all dying to know what happened on the date, aren't you? I won't tell. Nah, just kidding. Oh, my God. I promised myself, I wouldn't fall head over heels for someone again. And yet I find myself doing it. This girl is great. I enjoy spending the time with her. On Friday we went to Jade's for about an hour, then we walked to Diablo, then from there we went to an after hours party, which turned out to be exactly where the party was just before New Years. Then after there, we went to Pano's and had something to eat. I didn't get home til 7am... But damn, I had a great night. My biggest concern is that she states, that she is attracted to me, as I am attracted to her, but she has this barrier up, and it confusess me. I know, she is trying to keep her distance, and I can not only respect that, but agree with it, because I will admit, I'm still a little shooken from my previous relationship. I do want this relationship to grow, but I am worried though that she may be a little to normal for me. I don't have a problem with it, but normal girls tend to have problems with MY lifestyle. I haven't told her about the cross dressing yet. I don't know when and how to bring it up. Any suggestions? So then on Saturday, we went to the movies, and saw Cronicles of Narnia, which I have to admit, I read the book, the movie was a great adaptation, but at points it felt like it was missing something. But it was good. If you never read the book, it would be good. I never did like the Massiac Story to it though. Anyways. We are going out again on Friday. I wanted to take her to Olive Garden for a Lunch Date, but we both work, and Phil and I are going to Toronto for the weekend, so I figured I squeeze her in before I go. I think she is worth it. Although, I better not piss her off, she is a 2nd star Black Belt in Tie Kwan Do. I wasn't nervous the first, but now, I am so nervous of what will be with us, and my biggest concern is that I will be to foreward and scare her off, but she does say that it would be a little easier if she wasn't so attracted to me. I'm a guy (duh!) so, being the not so bright Male that I am, what does that statement mean? Am I looking into something more? Or am I just filling a spot til she finds something better? AHHHHHHHHH! Why can't life be simple?
Devilishly Yours,
Pete
Ankh42
P.S.: There is a new pic of me, please give me your opinion. Do you like the one I have now, or do you think I should put the eyeliner one in?
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[Edited on Feb 06, 2006 9:05PM]
About your photo - I really like the one you have up now, you've got this devilish look in your eye and i dig it. I like the other look - the eyeliner itself - but the photo doesn't have the devilish quality so - no.
About your lifestyle - I'd bring it up slowly. If she likes you, your personality, then she likes your lifestyle and just doesn't know it. Granted, she may freak - there is no way to tell how a person will react to things that are "different." Fear and ignorance do strange things to people - as well as past experiences. As you get to know her, you'll get a feeling for what she can handle. But don't take a passing comment as an omen that all is lost - you might take it as an oportunity for discussion. Play it by ear. I mean it, if she likes you, she likes YOU - she just may not understand that.
Head over heels is a wonderful feeling and I'd say enjoy the feeling itself even if it doesn't go anywhere!!! It really reminds you that you're alive, you know? Of course you do... you're head over heels! ;o)