hmmm. tomorrow i can extend my overdraft by another 600. after the 250 i need to pay off my credit card, that leaves me with 350. should be more than enough for a train ticket.
For real: Being special needs some work from both parts and you being depressed and sad and maybe drinking makes it harder to show your affection even if you feel it. So get this straightened out first.
the strangest thing is....even though you feel so strongly that you wont be someone special.....one day a single person can come along and just turn it all upside down. and your point of view changes entirely.
Better to be special to one person than just somebody to a million people.