american_exile

Sigh, Ive given up alcohol my friends. I came to the realization that the things that occired while I drank were not positive occurences in my life. Id often try to put a positive fear and loathing type of thinking to these events but I dont paricularly enjoy the presence of "bad Haynes" the person I turn into when i black out. Hes vulgar, and verbally abusive. several times ive woke up in the morning with no recollection of how i got in my bed, or what happened during the night. My best friend has been going through similar events in her life and told me over the phone that she had chosen to quit drinking. I pondered this and felt that I could use a long break from drinking too. Maybe when I feel like it can be a social thing again and not feel like i need to slam it down and order another right away I will begin to drink again at friendly gatherings and dinners. I dont need the bar life anymore. thanks for listening. Hi my name is Haynes and I was an alchohlic.