ambie

bitter
isn't it cute when someone hurts you then thier mom and best friend give you the impression that they really just want to be with you and then the person just takes another stab at your throat?
i still like his mom and best friend though. alot. nice people.
i think the nicest thing i could say last night was fuck you.
he wants to be my friend, he said "it was only a week, how hurt could you be?" i dont know, you are the one who made it seem as if you were pouring your entire heart into it to.
i am hurt because you act as if this were going to be something amazing, and great and then your bitch ex comes home for a fuckin night and even though you told her about me you were completely fucking differant and then in the morning its the old i dont wanna be with you line, its me not you bullshit. and you take her home that night even though you want to talk to me and you spend the night at her place. hahahaha
i did not mean to turn that into a crazed rant.. i really didnt. but it felt really good. i did say that i could be his friend eventualyl but not for a while cos it would just hurt too much.


time to move on cos there is no sense dwelling in the past.
going to a disney thing with derrick tommorow night which should be interesting. nice guy. seems normal so far and not going to do a 180 in a day.


someone help me before i go insane, from all of this wicked wicked pain, hold my hand and promise me forever, i dont care if you dont mean it its just better than promising never.


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