The weather makes me unmotivated, i think i have put on about 6 kgs since ive been here, i dont normally care too much about my weight but lately i have been obsessive...just not obsessive enough to stop eating.
Wearing layers and layers of clothes really makes you feel un feminine and when i finally take off all the layers i think fuck how did i let that get there. I know i can change it, but when you only have 8 hours of light a day and you have to work those 8 hours its very hard. I cant afford a gym membership and no way im fucking running on slippery streets in 3 degrees!
Dont get me wrong....i love it here....its just my plain laziness and the excuse of "im on vacation" that has gotten me here.
Im just sick of looking at everyone in their pretty outfits, everyone here is so well groomed, i feel like a bum. I havent even bought any new clothes since i been here except a corset, which one day i will wear. I have a voucher to spend from kate and leo, im going to save it to the sales...
Anyways enough of feeling sorry for myself, i know it is only a temporary thing, im looking forward to summer, where we will have light for most of the day, up until about 10 pm! Hopefully that will get me motivated and i can start jogging by the canal or somthing.
Ive also been thinking of when i get home and it scares the shit out of me, i will have nothing...no money, no house, no career...will have to start all over again. I dont know what i am going to do with myself, i definately dont feel cut out to be a personal trainer, im not a good example. So i dunnno, maybe i will study again in god knows what.... i dont even know if i can go back to my old job. There is so muh opportunity here, people from the uk can live anywhere in europe, us australians are stuck there FOREVER, unless you marry someone....which is not gonna happen. Oh well, i'll enjoy this while it lasts.
In good news...the job i have been temping at has offered me a 3 month contract which i am going to take....three months guarenteed work and the work is good, people are nice and 5 minute walk from home. Mok is on his way back from a job interview that went well....cross fingers he gets it.
Anways....i have pics of stuff on facebook now if you are interested.
Have a merry christmas and a Happy New Year
Love Nicole <3
Wearing layers and layers of clothes really makes you feel un feminine and when i finally take off all the layers i think fuck how did i let that get there. I know i can change it, but when you only have 8 hours of light a day and you have to work those 8 hours its very hard. I cant afford a gym membership and no way im fucking running on slippery streets in 3 degrees!
Dont get me wrong....i love it here....its just my plain laziness and the excuse of "im on vacation" that has gotten me here.
Im just sick of looking at everyone in their pretty outfits, everyone here is so well groomed, i feel like a bum. I havent even bought any new clothes since i been here except a corset, which one day i will wear. I have a voucher to spend from kate and leo, im going to save it to the sales...
Anyways enough of feeling sorry for myself, i know it is only a temporary thing, im looking forward to summer, where we will have light for most of the day, up until about 10 pm! Hopefully that will get me motivated and i can start jogging by the canal or somthing.
Ive also been thinking of when i get home and it scares the shit out of me, i will have nothing...no money, no house, no career...will have to start all over again. I dont know what i am going to do with myself, i definately dont feel cut out to be a personal trainer, im not a good example. So i dunnno, maybe i will study again in god knows what.... i dont even know if i can go back to my old job. There is so muh opportunity here, people from the uk can live anywhere in europe, us australians are stuck there FOREVER, unless you marry someone....which is not gonna happen. Oh well, i'll enjoy this while it lasts.
In good news...the job i have been temping at has offered me a 3 month contract which i am going to take....three months guarenteed work and the work is good, people are nice and 5 minute walk from home. Mok is on his way back from a job interview that went well....cross fingers he gets it.
Anways....i have pics of stuff on facebook now if you are interested.
Have a merry christmas and a Happy New Year
Love Nicole <3
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hope you and mok have a great day!
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I'm so glad you like my bug. I think you girls planted a seed way-back-when.
And, yesterday, the seed grew.
Hugs to you and Mok.
xx