okay so 1) your journal made me pissed that i ended up losing my love for no discernable reason (no worries ive been bitter for a while about it anyway) so listen to me and hold on tight to your love. even if you only see each other one day a fucking year never ever ever let go of that and think it will be easier to fall for someone that lives near you or...whatever. hold on tight godammit!. 2) im a bit confused so this fella is your best friend and you two are married to each other...or.....
hmm duder....
sound slike a shitty situation but dry those tears and try not to have your heart ripped in half (if it ahsnt happened already). uh and remember "fortes" iuvat "fortuna iuvat" fortune, he said, favors brave men. ie stick the course and youll be okay sound slike yough decisions though...
I have an idea how you feel, from personal experience. I have mixed emotions toward you...I can sympathize with how you feel, but in some small way I envy you that in your case, the feelings are reciprocated.