alicat0162

So life has been interesting latly. I kind of met a boy but not really because he is like every other shithead addict i always end up likeing. WHY??? I cant figgure out why i like these loosers. We went out a few times hung out like for almost a week straight. He asked me out every time he got drunk(probubly 5 or 6 times) and I always said talk to me about it when your sober. Not that I would have said yes when he was sober but I felt I could have explained my answer of no better- he has yet to as sober . But truly I did start to like him and start to think about how much I have enjoyed and yet hated being single. However I know that I cannot get into a relationship with this person. He is a user in the worst ways possible. I see it because I have had him before just with a different name. But the game of how much he likes me and how beautiful I am and how much he wishes i would spend the night not just at his house but with him is the same and always when something is wanted or needed. but although my brain knows what is going on it allows my heart to take in the nice things he sais anyway. This makes me like him I'm not sure how not to like him. I'm not good at confrontation or ignoring people. some1 calls i answer thats the way i work. I just dont know what to do. I wish I could make myself not like him or any other of the loosers i fall for.

I had a nice guy once. what the fuck is wrong with me