Loosing a family member defintely sucks... especially when it feels like there's some aspect of your relationship that feels unfinished. When my paternal grandmother died suddenly, it really hit hard. The last I had seen her alive she was seemingly in good health, happy and everything. I didn't have a chance to say goodbye or tell her how much I loved her.
If you need to talk or support in any way, I'm here for ya.
I am so sorry...I havn't spoken to my family in almost ten years, it was one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make and I am afraid of how it will hit me at a time like this...I hope you feel better and are not too hard on yourself..again, I am sorry
Hopefully you can make it down for my birthday party.
