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I seriously dont know whats wrong with me. Appart from the obvious, 2 weeks ago, Ive felt like shit for while now. Im talking a couple of months, so its not just flu. I realise somewhere down the line Ive got internal bleeding. Ive know that for ages, and I know how, but coughing up and passing blood is kinda common place now. Still, Im constantly tired no matter how much I sleep, amongst other things. It's just begining to take its toll now. Ive dislocated myself from all the record company shit. I dont answer my phone and I just sign whatever they send me, I dont really care now. I know Im still in their bad books after trying to punch that rep' and this is only exasibating things but I just cant deal with it at the moment. The only reason I knew about the May/June tour was a bit of a fluke.

Oh, how the great have fallen... <(click me!)

Keep this torture to myself.
What am I doing with this knife in my hand?

I said I did it and Ill do it again!
I never did it but Ild do it again!
You said I did it and Ill do it again___!
Straight through my heart...

I never wanted to be like you!
I never wanted to do what you do!
I never wanna be so fucked like you___!
Straight through my heart...

Cant the evil speak to me?



Theres something else thats bothering me too.

When I flick through photo albums on here I always see people with their other half. Smiling, kissing etc, Just looking really happy.

Its just depressing realising I havent got that, or even had it for a really long time.

If ever... I dunno