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Pop quiz for my long time friends on here - anyone remember why my dad was in hospital?

Anyone wanna take me the fuck away from here?

No - my dad isn't in the hospital again ... but I really wouldn't be surprised if he ends up there soon.

One of the first warning signs we got last time, before we even knew what was wrong, was that my dads stomach started turning purple.

Well ... it's happening again. And he doesn't seem to give a fuck about it either - just shrugs it off. He got pissed at me today 'cause I forcefully told him to go get it checked out.

I mean fuck ... I understand that he might be worried ... but what the fuck is better - getting it checked out and nipping the problem before it gets too bad, or just shrugging it off and being scared to get it checked out?

I just wish he could fucking realize how important he is to me, despite how much he has fucked me up throughout my life.

*sigh* I just need to go somewhere where I'm not 24 ... where I'm not facing the prospects of taking care of both my parents who are nearing 60 ... where I can take time to be myself and really figure out what I want to do in life by being able to experience life on my own ... where I can be free and happy.