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My days have become extremely monotonous. I wake up, workout once or twice, shower, go to work or sit here with J, come home and play mahjong until I decide to take some nyquil to fall asleep. It kills me that I can't sleep again. Luckily Rylie has come to my rescue a couple of times to stave off boredom for yet another night.

I'm reading Atlas Shrugged right now. Its a very good philosophical book. It deals mainly with selfishness in the original sense, not the "I'm not giving you any of my oreos" sense. Basically, you live for yourself, you cannot be forced to give anything of yours to other people out of any other reason that you feel like it. This has been my philosophy for a while. Yet selfishness now has a horrible connotation attached to it. The way I see it is as self preservation, I live and work to basically maintain my own life and that is how it should be. Once you live to keep other peoples lives going while ignoring your own, I think you've hit the point of no return. But, thats not to say that I wouldn't give my life for some people. Children are an exception, thats a given. But I stray from my point. Self preservation, in my opinion what should be the most important thing in a person's life. Once you don't have yourself, what have you got?

Anyway, I'm tired and I need to get to sleep. I love you guys and I'll talk with you later.

Aardy.