Sunday Feb 10, 2008

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things in life are difficult or stressfull

stressor 1
lack of serious business happening at work , low orders from current customer is bad for business. hopefully in a year i wont be starting all over again trying to stick my foot back into fashion when i was just getting there. hopefully my company can pick up some new orders because i need additional income to work on staying in the right realm of work. we really have a good possibility of going out of business with in the next year.

stressor A
moving current plan move in the same area with claire, no slum lords. but if job time goes to unemployed, i would be happy to go to ny. there are many aspects about la i dont like there are many aspects about ny i dont like either, but i know where my whole self belongs and i know what that would do for my family, when the proper time shows itself, i am moving back to my roots every time i'm there i know i'm connected to it walking around in the places i walked long ago feels like allignement

stressor 3
trying to relax, nothing tortures me more then relaxing i just can't do it. i am my own worse stressor,


i need to do new creative things. if anyone has any ideas or things throw them at me.

i also need some new music in the form of mp3s

anyone have any suggestions for filling the relax time ... as to make it not a stressed out relaxing time.


i dunno if any of this made sense as i am awake through a sleeping pill
obd:
no, it all makes sense [except for the whole counting 1-A-3 tongue ]. It seems that 1 mostly involves things you can't entirely control. I'm not going to tell you not to worry, that's not probably not possible. The only thing you can do is figure out what you're going to do in the best and worst cases. It sounds like you're already working through that. It also sounds like, should the worst happen, your current position will look good.

A is just one of those big life sort of decisions. You will know the right thing to do when the time comes.

3, well, I have this problem too. The only way I've been able to deal with it is to laugh when I catch me self flagellating.

I don't know if any of that helps, but I hope it does.
clairific:
Moving into a decent place will definitely help, I know that's a big thing that's been getting me down lately. Imagine having real space and working appliances and decent temperatures!
Have you thought about keeping an eye out for a better job?

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