keep ya head up....there's lots of good dudes out there. i hate cheaters,.i am now divorced because the ex-decided a 48 year old golfer was more suitable to her than a hardcore guy. i found this blog interesting and it struck a chord in me....it reminds of the lyrics to "hell to pay" by Converge.
good luck...you look familiar..i'm sure i have seen you at show somewhere in vb/
I am so sorry about the whole situation, I really feel for you, you looked so worn out and lost in chat earlier. He is so not worth the effort, and a real man would have been there for you no matter what. If you ever feel like a chat, or a rant, let me know....things will get better in time.