rasputin1916

Sooo I think Im going on the RAW diet, for at least the 100 days it says to try and do.... but I think if I like it I may just make it a change in my lifestyle. I already know that giving up drinking is just proably not going to happen, seems no matter how hard I try, I just like beer and I...
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Yes I understand that every life must end, aw huh,..
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw huh,..
Im a lucky man to count on both hands
The ones I love,..

Some folks just have one,
Others they got none, aw huh,..

Stay with me,..
Lets just breathe.

Practiced are my sins,
Never gonna let me win, aw huh,..
Under everything,...
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hhh I dont feel like I am strong enough to endure what this has to offer.... I want to be the light at the end of this long and dark tunnel... something tells me that what I wait for is hardly what it seems

how sad is it for you to try and take your own life
and fail so terribly
You've tried so hard to lead your life in the right direction
but it takes you only to dead ends
walls built so high there is no top to them
above the edge is black and filled with misery

sometimes I feel as though Im better off this...
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Ok so Im liquered up again and had an itch to write.... Im sure its a bunch of jibberish but if it sounds ok let me know... here ya go

Time and space have given me
These things are leaving me
Heartache and numbing pain
Some things can explain
The wind is free, but not me
Feelings come and go
And to where no one...
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Ohhhh the life of me.... where to start??? I have been talking to this girl that I have known for a while, we use to lifeguard together back in the day... and I had a little crush on her.... It is kind of wierd how all of this has come about really and I may be in a situation that isnt the greatest... but I...
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hhhhhhhhhhh So I have had a song stuck in my head all day and I couldnt remember the words all that was running through my head was the beat and for the life of me I couldnt figure it out... I spent all day bugging friends with this da dadadada da da crap and everyone thought I was losing it, and rightfuly so... but about...
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well I finally made the move to Mattoon, Ill be starting school this Monday and while I am excited I am also nervous at the same time. New school, dont really know anyone.. plus another chic shit on me right before I moved down here.. no big suprise there, I have come accustomed to it. I am living with my friend from high school down...
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Ohhh my fucking god.... you know there really comes a point where it just gets to be too fucking much.... I really just wish that I could have an actual conversation with a chic and have no bullshit, no lies, no drama... how hard is it to just be honest... Im not gonna lie, Im a pretty shy dude when it comes to girls I...
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Ohhh the memories, my buddy just sent me a video we made while we were in Iraq... actually two of them. The first one is a parrody we made of the Armed Forces Network's commercials... thye were always so poorly done and just flat out ignorant. They usually had some lame point they were trying to get across, like, military personel do not let friends...
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Had a decent weekend, didnt quite go as planned, but still all in all a pretty good one. I have been taking pictures again, not really sure why I stopped I suppose school is getting in the way. Ill post some pics and leave you with a stanza from my favorite poem... its kinda how I have been feeling lately...

No! I am not Prince...
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