The blog I posted today on my website :
ITS ALL ABOUT YOU AND BEING WHO YOU ARE!
MOOD: up and down today
COLOUR: today its cosmic blue, royal blue and purple.
SONG: Who I Am Jessica Andrews
So I have spoken about the emptiness in my life and the loneliness I feel sometimes because of my lack of friends and a family, and yeah it sucks, but since writing about the loneliness and stuff, I have had people telling me things like; You should be more like him., You should be more like her. and You should be more like me! Well although I appreciate the advice and the platitudes, I gotta say...NOOOO thank you.
Loneliness is a pain in the ass, believe me I know, but you know what, why should I change and be more like Tom, Dick and Harriet? The mask I wear is not a mask at all it is me, it is who I am. Yus I have bipolar and other issues, yus I am not particularly cool or clever or good looking, and I hate dance music and such clubs with a fiery passion. But so fucking what!!! And thats me swearing. Something I dont do much on my site.
I shall say this only once, I am not going to change to please others, if I make any changes it is to please me, and everyone else will do well to take a leaf out of this damn book.
For years people have said: I want to be more like him or her. What you dont know or rather what some people dont say out loud because they havent got the balls to say it, is a lot of the time, not all, but a lot of the time, what people are really saying when they say that is I want to BE him/her. and the reason I know this? because that is exactly what I used to be like, and I know I wasnt the only one, it is very rare you are the only one in any situation, theres always someone else in a similar sit.
Anyway so theres so many people out there who want to be someone else because that someone else has got more friends, more money, a nicer place, a nicer family, well I got a news flash for ya, lots of people covet things that others have, there are some people who may long to be like you too, or maybe not, who knows.
But I do know this, you are not going to find yourself or your own friends by being someone else or by trying too hard to be like someone else. You are only going to find that by being yourself you big dope and yup that goes for me too.
Now if you dont like who yourself is, there is no reason you cant change, anything and everything is possible, it just means you havent found your TRUE self yet or you are too scared to be your true self because you are letting people hold you back, which is a big cop out guv, you may want to be a punk but you are scared what your folks will say, screw them, if a punk is who you are then be that damn punk, if public schoolboy type is who you are, be that public schoolboy type, if you believe you are a goth gal be a goddam goth gal, if you are a boy trapped in a girls body or vice versa, release your damned self and screw society, society is not important, you are, and until you are true to yourself, you cant be true to others and they cant be true to you.
Let me tell you something about society, if society cant accept you for who you are, then that means a couple of things, firstly, society is full of bigots and they are the ones with the problem not you, secondly, its possible that some of them havent found their true selves yet or darent be their true selves because theyre too scared to. does it make you better than them? nope, just more open minded and true to yourself than they are.
And you know what else if society dont like it then you damn well tell them Cry me river, build a bridge and get the fuck over it. Youre either a sheep or you are you, its your choice.
Being someone because people to tell you to be that person means that you are just going to be more unhappy than you were before.
Yeah I am still pretty much friendless, acquaintances sure I got them, twitter buddies, yup I got them too, I havent made friends on SG yet, I dont expect Ill make any friends here in Devon any time soon and you know what screw them, but for years I had been listening to others telling me who I should and shouldnt be, and listening to people laughing at me because of my craziness and crazy ideas.
The one thing I can say is I have found, and in some areas am still finding, myself, I know for a fact I been hiding parts of the real me for some years, and even though am still pretty much friendless I am certain I am on the right path because I am happier with the person I am now becoming.
Looking up to people is fine, appreciating them for who they are is great, but you cant be them you must be you, so instead of aspiring to BE someone else or be like them, aspire to be the real you, and the chances are you will find your place and your friends and your true happiness if not straight away, someday soon, but making changes and finding yourself takes time, I mean I am 37 soon so I been looking for a while.
It doesnt mean thats how long it will take for you, you may be cleverer than I am. You maybe even found yourself years ago and this is all old news to you, but I am writing this because, well its like I said before, I cant be the only one in this situation, there could be others, and it is as much for them as it is myself that I write this.
Im going to close this blog with a kinda mantra I have and often use, Take me as I am, or dont take me at all, if you cant take me at all, you should at least respect me as I do you, and if you cant respect me, then you stay the fuck out of my face and I will stay the fuck out of yours.
A true friend accepts you for who you are mind, body and soul, you accept them for who they are mind, body and soul if you are a true friend to them. I am looking for true friends, not people that want to change me and hold me back from being the real me. You have a right to the self same. :-)
Love, hugs and bright blessings
Rin
xox
ITS ALL ABOUT YOU AND BEING WHO YOU ARE!
MOOD: up and down today
COLOUR: today its cosmic blue, royal blue and purple.
SONG: Who I Am Jessica Andrews
So I have spoken about the emptiness in my life and the loneliness I feel sometimes because of my lack of friends and a family, and yeah it sucks, but since writing about the loneliness and stuff, I have had people telling me things like; You should be more like him., You should be more like her. and You should be more like me! Well although I appreciate the advice and the platitudes, I gotta say...NOOOO thank you.
Loneliness is a pain in the ass, believe me I know, but you know what, why should I change and be more like Tom, Dick and Harriet? The mask I wear is not a mask at all it is me, it is who I am. Yus I have bipolar and other issues, yus I am not particularly cool or clever or good looking, and I hate dance music and such clubs with a fiery passion. But so fucking what!!! And thats me swearing. Something I dont do much on my site.
I shall say this only once, I am not going to change to please others, if I make any changes it is to please me, and everyone else will do well to take a leaf out of this damn book.
For years people have said: I want to be more like him or her. What you dont know or rather what some people dont say out loud because they havent got the balls to say it, is a lot of the time, not all, but a lot of the time, what people are really saying when they say that is I want to BE him/her. and the reason I know this? because that is exactly what I used to be like, and I know I wasnt the only one, it is very rare you are the only one in any situation, theres always someone else in a similar sit.
Anyway so theres so many people out there who want to be someone else because that someone else has got more friends, more money, a nicer place, a nicer family, well I got a news flash for ya, lots of people covet things that others have, there are some people who may long to be like you too, or maybe not, who knows.
But I do know this, you are not going to find yourself or your own friends by being someone else or by trying too hard to be like someone else. You are only going to find that by being yourself you big dope and yup that goes for me too.
Now if you dont like who yourself is, there is no reason you cant change, anything and everything is possible, it just means you havent found your TRUE self yet or you are too scared to be your true self because you are letting people hold you back, which is a big cop out guv, you may want to be a punk but you are scared what your folks will say, screw them, if a punk is who you are then be that damn punk, if public schoolboy type is who you are, be that public schoolboy type, if you believe you are a goth gal be a goddam goth gal, if you are a boy trapped in a girls body or vice versa, release your damned self and screw society, society is not important, you are, and until you are true to yourself, you cant be true to others and they cant be true to you.
Let me tell you something about society, if society cant accept you for who you are, then that means a couple of things, firstly, society is full of bigots and they are the ones with the problem not you, secondly, its possible that some of them havent found their true selves yet or darent be their true selves because theyre too scared to. does it make you better than them? nope, just more open minded and true to yourself than they are.
And you know what else if society dont like it then you damn well tell them Cry me river, build a bridge and get the fuck over it. Youre either a sheep or you are you, its your choice.
Being someone because people to tell you to be that person means that you are just going to be more unhappy than you were before.
Yeah I am still pretty much friendless, acquaintances sure I got them, twitter buddies, yup I got them too, I havent made friends on SG yet, I dont expect Ill make any friends here in Devon any time soon and you know what screw them, but for years I had been listening to others telling me who I should and shouldnt be, and listening to people laughing at me because of my craziness and crazy ideas.
The one thing I can say is I have found, and in some areas am still finding, myself, I know for a fact I been hiding parts of the real me for some years, and even though am still pretty much friendless I am certain I am on the right path because I am happier with the person I am now becoming.
Looking up to people is fine, appreciating them for who they are is great, but you cant be them you must be you, so instead of aspiring to BE someone else or be like them, aspire to be the real you, and the chances are you will find your place and your friends and your true happiness if not straight away, someday soon, but making changes and finding yourself takes time, I mean I am 37 soon so I been looking for a while.
It doesnt mean thats how long it will take for you, you may be cleverer than I am. You maybe even found yourself years ago and this is all old news to you, but I am writing this because, well its like I said before, I cant be the only one in this situation, there could be others, and it is as much for them as it is myself that I write this.
Im going to close this blog with a kinda mantra I have and often use, Take me as I am, or dont take me at all, if you cant take me at all, you should at least respect me as I do you, and if you cant respect me, then you stay the fuck out of my face and I will stay the fuck out of yours.
A true friend accepts you for who you are mind, body and soul, you accept them for who they are mind, body and soul if you are a true friend to them. I am looking for true friends, not people that want to change me and hold me back from being the real me. You have a right to the self same. :-)
Love, hugs and bright blessings
Rin
xox