Originally I meant to post something else, but I don't know if I should leave this public. because for weeks driving home in the following state of mind is basically too dangerous and I need to have my license revoked for driving at all.

Basically that I spent most of my teenage years unwilling to drive. I had no reason to drive. I didn...
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(holy shit, I think I broke this site! I posted this blog then can't edit it for like 15 minutes, tried reloading, tried 3 different browsers, wtf!)

So posting while drinking, what could go wrong?

Well for starters... suidegirls.com isn't a valid domain and loading my blog apparently results in a Katy Perry song playing which isn't good for anyone.

So...
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I mean saying yes, by no choice of my own, that's an option. But it is so repugnant that I can't abide it. Being called a stalker. So how to avoid it if it means walking away from you.

My aunt told me I should just walk away from you. I said you'd pushed me so far away from everything, blocking me...
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The longer this carries on and the more it feels I'm losing her, whether true or not.. The more it seems a dissociation is developing. The i can deal with being a third wheel.. And the i have to jump ship.

It doesn't help to have some random kid she'd pulled into the party, a mutual friend of theirs, tell me how...
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Weird. I guess no videos are getting uploaded to the site. That sucks. Tried to post one just to see but nothing new in 5 days. 😩

So after the last, which was the email that I sent to her... there's more.

--And that email was hard enough to send to her in the first place,

I said to her 'I'm done'. That's all. nothing more to it than that.. Just 'I'm done'.

She replied that if I was done then so was she. What had happened was...
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Darling it's cold outside

Oh it's so cold out here tonight

Well I'm here freezing in the dark

And your loves a fading spark

Darling it's cold outside

Oh it's so cold out here tonight

You're in there having quite a lark

And my car won't even start

Darling it's cold outside

Oh its so cold out...
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When you're talking to the husband and without an ounce of emnity he's like, so will you try pursue to my wife? And I'm like, even despite myself, obviously i would. But due to circumstances it would be impossible. But even practically i couldn't think about it. They bring up Tinder instead and I'm like that wouldn't even help...
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lzim:
But on the other hand, he did call me Hitler so i suppose we can't be friends. 

Months have gone by and while she's still very affectionate, honest and awesome.. I still refuse to believe she's single. But the last thing she said was 'new years with her girlfriend'.. I just need friends right now though and blew the few I have off due to work. But can't help myself for wanting her all to myself you know? I...
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