Or.. back to picking at ashes in the wasteland..

Wow is it ever alarming to smell the smoke and feel the heat fire from guilt and regret and was not the one that set the fire.

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Your Personality*

You are a bit compulsive and somewhat inconsiderate.

You are melancholy: you think quite often about the things you are unhappy about. You are intermittent: you have a hard time sticking with difficult tasks for a long period of time. And you are unconcerned with art: you are less concerned with artistic or creative activities than most people who...
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her : I'm curious to see you remote connect to my computer

me : Woman I told you to stop talking dirty to me

her : don't get horny

me : too late

Because in most games if you make the first move I'm one step closer to winning.

Does that sound bad?

It really isn't.

It just means we're a move into the game where I haven't already fucked up. When you make the first move I have an extra moment to think and the chances I'll fuck up my move are...
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Originally I meant to post something else, but I don't know if I should leave this public. because for weeks driving home in the following state of mind is basically too dangerous and I need to have my license revoked for driving at all.

Basically that I spent most of my teenage years unwilling to drive. I had no reason to drive. I didn...
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(holy shit, I think I broke this site! I posted this blog then can't edit it for like 15 minutes, tried reloading, tried 3 different browsers, wtf!)

So posting while drinking, what could go wrong?

Well for starters... suidegirls.com isn't a valid domain and loading my blog apparently results in a Katy Perry song playing which isn't good for anyone.

So...
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I mean saying yes, by no choice of my own, that's an option. But it is so repugnant that I can't abide it. Being called a stalker. So how to avoid it if it means walking away from you.

My aunt told me I should just walk away from you. I said you'd pushed me so far away from everything, blocking me...
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The longer this carries on and the more it feels I'm losing her, whether true or not.. The more it seems a dissociation is developing. The i can deal with being a third wheel.. And the i have to jump ship.

It doesn't help to have some random kid she'd pulled into the party, a mutual friend of theirs, tell me how...
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Weird. I guess no videos are getting uploaded to the site. That sucks. Tried to post one just to see but nothing new in 5 days. 😩