When faced with the prospect of dramatic change the mind undergoes severe stress. Neural pathways collapse to reignite long forgotten experiences, the constant fires of the outside world are reduced to a subtle shimmer, and your capacity to take bullshit from others hits an all time low.

Overall with everything going on in my life right now I find that I'm in a positive...
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These past two weeks I've heard so many songs on the radio or at bars that are so good but I had forgotten about them.

Such as: "How Bizarre" by OMC, "Life On Mars?" by David Bowie, "Flagpole Sitta" by Harvey Danger, "Simply Irresistible" by Robert Palmer, and finally "What is Love" by Haddaway.

I even listened to "Night on Bald Mountain" after hearing...
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I'm in a strange place right now. Since my last post my dad has started chemo and has drastically improved.

I will admit though I tried to fight it the wrong side was winning the past couple of weeks but then the little things started happening. At first little things crept in; a light chore tackled, a meal eaten. It solidified with me the...
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Life is all about the little things.

Last night I had a crazy night battling a bat in my parents house. I thought I'd taken care of it but I wasn't 100%.

Tonight it came back and we fought again. This time it accepted my gesture of freedom and escaped outside.

I have to say the whole ordeal was insane but the moment...
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While I'm still remaining hopeful that he will overcome this obstacle my dad has gotten worse over this past week. He can't eat much of anything and mostly just drinks water. I gave him some over the counter nausea medication and it seemed to help. Yet he still isn't able to keep anything of substance down. He also seems disoriented at times...
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Disclaimer; this blog will cover some very real topics. I've been debating with myself for days about how to come to terms with my current situation in a way that won't result in a trip to crazy land and I've finally broken down to the realization that this is exactly why I have this account.

I hope that the overall tone of...
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I don't mean to seem so negative all the time. Truth is I'm actually a very positive person in real life. I feel a real and deep love for humanity because we are amazing creatures.

I just let my negativity go to release it from my body and I choose to do it here because no one that knows me would think to...
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This is something I just want to get off my chest and I have nowhere else to post it without causing people to worry.

We all know domestic abuse exists and try as we might we also know it's a beast that exists on it's own terms. For every case we stop ten more exist we never hear about. This is my account...
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baalseraph:
I totally understand what you're trying to express here, and I really admire you for sharing this with us. It's not easy to do so, so you deserve kudos for that. I personally never was involved with domestic abuse (so far), but I understand that it has not necessarily to do with physical violence. That said, a woman or girl that is far smaller and physically weaker than a guy can of course be extremely abusive to said guy, be it mentally or emotionally or even both. That's actually -in my opinion- the far crueller way to hurt someone...