came back on the black friday one year deal.
from about last december, i found myself in a situation i have found myself in far too often in my life.
a girl i was friends with online for upwards of three years just randomly decided to pretend she was into me for a period of three months (i am convinced no girl has ever said the words "i want you inside me" and meant it....that was a red flag this was some kind of joke).
it's the same bullshit that happened in 2002.
It has happened four times (the 3rd time it was my friends ex wife, so i didn't reciprocate, but it was pretty funny when my friend told me "yeah, she does that to everyone").
(speaking of my recently divorced friend, this girl did the exact same thing to him the year before.......)
It's never a stranger. It's always someone I have I have developed some kind of friendship with.
....I haven't approached ANYONE since 2002. I just don't fucking do it. I don't know why after all that time I somehow let two more people like that into my life and didn't realize it. I guess they have low self esteem in common, now that I think of it.
I don't know. I feel myself regressing into being pretty toxic again.
I've been trying to go to a therapist, but they aren't calling me back. It seems like the people connected to my jobs insurance plan are not very good...or something. There's a NAMI in my area though. I'm just gonna go there and see what they can recommend.
Band is going okay. Album is almost done being mixed (i think it's basically done).
My projects are going pretty strong.
A lot of inspiration...eh?
....ok....i'm done.
