I suffer from Multiple Sclerosis and am pretty much housebound, so yes, I can relate to that feeling very much. It's speaking to lovely people on here (like the wonderful @arrow_escobar) that have kept me going recently. I really hope that you aren't feeling that you're not really alive, but if you are, my wholehearted suggestion would be to reach out. There are some amazing people on this site and some are just strangers that you haven't yet met. If ever you need a metaphorical shoulder to cry on, someone to vent your anger at, or someone to just listen, I offer my services for free and to just be a friend. If you want, you can contact me whenever you wish. All my very best wishes and hope for your wellbeing ๐โคโคxx