do you ever wonder sometimes when you stumble across something youve hidden away why you never burned it...its so odd how far back you can push the memory of someone you loved so dearly and it just appears one day again like a bad omen or a random thought....and it all feels so awfully familiar...
i feel so sad. i just lost the person whom i hoped would be in my life for a long time after it taking me years to get over someone i spent 4 years of my life with. i dont think ill ever fully adjust tot he loss. if he wasnt marrying the giel he basically forgot about me over then maybe it wouldnt be so bad...sometimes i have the thought that maybe its not too late...maybe he still loves me just as i love him deep down inside and maybe his love for her is really his masked love for me. everyone says how much her and i are alike...its almost sick.
and now the one person after all these years in my life to cover up that hurt has left a scar of his own. and i sit here alone contemplationg...wich my finger once again on the send button but i still cannot do it. and sit and regret that if i had in the first place before he got too comfortbale with her if it would have matter anyhow.
i hate regret as much the that old jar of mystery int he back of the fridge that you avoid evertime you open the door.
sweet misery.
i feel so sad. i just lost the person whom i hoped would be in my life for a long time after it taking me years to get over someone i spent 4 years of my life with. i dont think ill ever fully adjust tot he loss. if he wasnt marrying the giel he basically forgot about me over then maybe it wouldnt be so bad...sometimes i have the thought that maybe its not too late...maybe he still loves me just as i love him deep down inside and maybe his love for her is really his masked love for me. everyone says how much her and i are alike...its almost sick.
and now the one person after all these years in my life to cover up that hurt has left a scar of his own. and i sit here alone contemplationg...wich my finger once again on the send button but i still cannot do it. and sit and regret that if i had in the first place before he got too comfortbale with her if it would have matter anyhow.
i hate regret as much the that old jar of mystery int he back of the fridge that you avoid evertime you open the door.
sweet misery.