So last Saturday, the 12th... I have offically been a Suicide Girl for a year. It is kind of surreal how quickly that year has come and gone. People always ask how did you get involved or become a part of SG.... so here is my story.....
I was at home watching E! Entertainment's 12 sexiest jobs in Hollywood.
I was watching and as it counted down I was like yep I could never do that job.... yada yada yada but was still a cool show to watch. As it got closer to the top of the countdown though... Suicide Girls was mentioned... I dont remember what number it was... but when the amazingly beautiful girls came on, with their crazy fun...bright colored hair and their beautiful tattos and works of art on their body I looked at myself and was like hmmmmmmmmmm.... what is this website they talk of....because at that time I had never heard of Suicidegirls. So of course, I immediatley went to the internet and looked it up.... and to my amazement I saw pages and pages of beautiful, unique women. A place where I felt I actually might have a chance of fitting it. I looked at my inked body and my crazy hair... which at that time was Neon Pink and Violet Purple......
and thought... I kinda want to look into this and see what it takes. I have never modeled before, had no experience, so I was nervous and excited all at the same time... I contacted a local photographer who I found off Model Mayhem and asked if they would be interested in shooting a SG set for me... to my amazement they knew exactly the style I was looking for and what I wanted.... IN CASE YOU DIDNT KNOW THIS PHOTOGRAPHER WAS ANATOMIK. I was sooooo lucky to find someone who's talent impressed and awed me. I have been with them from the beginning and hold them near and dear to my heart... after all it is because of his talent and our work together that I became a suicide girl. So I kind of owe it to him and his wife for showcasing who I am and what I am about.... and of course, doing it with class!!!! The first set we shot was a really fun balloon set... I wanted something that gave insite to who I was without having to be serious.... I am sooo not a serious person... but rather a giddy spaz who loves to have fun......So if you dont remember here is the first set I submitted.......
The set was a bit long... but I got lots of incredible feedback as to how to improve for my second set. I was blown away with the comments I was getting and the support given from the other SG and members. Not to be sappy but it was awsome to find a place where people loved everything about me that I have hated... or have pin pointed my entire life. It was incredible to know that people loved me for who I was and to know that it was ok I had tons of ink and it was ok that I like to stand out and be differnt from the norm.
So my second set submitted was my first set to be accepted and to hit the front page!!!! On Dec 12th 2008. It was my Lakeview Park set, which was shot with Anatomik at a local park near their place. So this was an interesting set to pull off... we went to the park at 5:30ish in the am so that we could get there before all the locals got there and began their day at the park, as it was summer. We had to deal with an occasional dog walker...at which case I just took a dive in the weeds. Hahahaha. I also am pretty sure the old guys across the water, who were morning fishing got quite a view... but hey... they didnt tell on me... so I didnt care!!!
You have no idea how excited I was to be a SG... I know everyone says that... but honestly.... I did this thinking... hmmm I have never modeled before... I have never taken a single nude image..... and I will just try this out.... so to be accepted so quickly I was estatic.
I then submitted a New Years set in Jan....
and shortly after a Styx set which was previously shot before it got to cold out.
Neither of these were excepted... but that happens from time to time... and besides practice makes perfect and the more I was shooting the more I was learning. When I do a set... a lot of my thoughts and creativity go into making the set come together so I was not totally bummed because I was still getting to be artistic and creative and got some really awsome shots for my portfolio from these sets. I also began to learn that it was easier and easier to get naked and show off my body as I was growing to accept who I am.
I then decided I was going to go back to my roots of being my bright... bold....colorful self and show my love not only for the 80's but for music and video games..... I am such a dork and love to pretend rock out while playing guitar hero.... so why not show that in a set??? Hahaha! This set was accepted on March 2nd 2009. It was again shot by Anatomik.
This was honestly such a fun set to shoot... I was laughing the whole time, and I was hoped it would show in my images. I also got told in a lot of comments, after this set came out, that I was holding the guitar backwards.... to which I explained... nope.... I am right handed in everything I do... but for some reason with a guitar... video game or real... I am left handed... I feel I can move my fingers quicker this way... I dont know hahah!!!!
Throughtout this process of being on SG... my love for taking pics has also come back to me. I use to have a great passion for photography and worked in a studio for a long while... so I told myself try self shooting a set.... to which my Fun In The Tub set was put together..... If you dont remember this one... here are some images... yes this was self shoot and I was pretty happy with how it turned out....
Out of all the sets I have shot... this set was my personality the most. I am such a dork and a complete goofball and I think being alone and shooting this myself I was able to portray that the most in this set.
Moving along to my next live set..... Which was on the front page on July 2nd 2009.... With Under My Umbrella.... Anatomik and I really wanted to try to show a different side to me that had not been shown in a set yet... so he went a little more artistic with their shooting... I went back to my natural haircolor and made sure to not wear bright makeup... this was a more natural....dark.... artsy set.... and I was soooo sooo happy with how it turned out!
I then submitted a set for the "sexy without trying" contest.... For my Ivy Wall set... I wore nooooooo makeup and was as simple as possible.... I was kinda ify about showing you all myself without makeup as I am one of those people who can not leave home without it on. But to my surprise... the way Dan shot this set... it turned out really fun and pretty and the Ivy wall greens went really well with my pink inbetween stages hair.
Then I had the oppurtunity to work with my first staff photog... Brooklyn. She was making a trip to Chicago and I could not pass up the oppurtunity to not only work with her but to meet her.... she is soooo positive on this site and her work never fails to amaze me so it was a given we work together. We got along sooooo well and we ended up shooting 3 sets.... We got to shoot in some really cool locations and I can honestly say I hope me and this girl work together much much more in the future whenever we are in the same area!!!! Such an amazing girl!
So we put out Mystify.....which is still in MR... it has got amazing reviews and comments and it well loved.... so I really do not want to take it down yet.... still keeping hope for a bit longer. I think Brooklyn did a really good job capturing my softer side in this set... it turned out really girly and pretty!!!!
And lastly.... which brings me to my last live set.... which went up on the front page Saturday.... the 12th...which was kinda cool... a year to date... and went up the exact same day as my first live set... kinda cool to me!!!! Was a set I got to shoot with Lorelei. She was passing through Chicago on her way home and asked if I wanted to work with her... ummmmm are u kidding me... do you even need to ask... OF COURSE I DO.... HAVE YOU SEEN HER WORK. I felt really comfortable with Lorelei....which may I add is such a cute lil adorable girl....who brought her dog, Baby, along... and you knew me and animals.... sooooo much fun. I felt Lorelei did a really good job showing me at my most intimate up to this point... up close and personal.
In the past year... I have seen myself grow from an insecure girl...who doubted herself into someone who is happy that she stands out and isnt the same as everyone else. I have seen myself grow more confident in my pictures and sets and I see myself growing as a model on this site. I have found a community in which I love being a part of.... I love participating in... and I love supporting what it stands for. I can only hope as time progresses I become an even bigger part of this site. I think it goes without saying... you know who you are... but those of you who have stuck by me from day one deserve a huge huge thanks!!! So much love and appriciation goes out to you. Also, those of you who continue to stand by my work.... deserve much love as well... I can not thank you enough. I love being able to be creative and show you a part of me at a certain time in my life...with each set.... I can only hope you continue to enjoy me, who I am and what I stand for!
I have sooo many more things to show you... I have a few sets in the works...being edited... so stay tuned!
Kraven is just getting started I hope!!!!!
KEEP ROCKING!!!!!! MUCH LOVE!!!!!! HUGS AND KISSES!!!!!!
I was at home watching E! Entertainment's 12 sexiest jobs in Hollywood.
I was watching and as it counted down I was like yep I could never do that job.... yada yada yada but was still a cool show to watch. As it got closer to the top of the countdown though... Suicide Girls was mentioned... I dont remember what number it was... but when the amazingly beautiful girls came on, with their crazy fun...bright colored hair and their beautiful tattos and works of art on their body I looked at myself and was like hmmmmmmmmmm.... what is this website they talk of....because at that time I had never heard of Suicidegirls. So of course, I immediatley went to the internet and looked it up.... and to my amazement I saw pages and pages of beautiful, unique women. A place where I felt I actually might have a chance of fitting it. I looked at my inked body and my crazy hair... which at that time was Neon Pink and Violet Purple......
and thought... I kinda want to look into this and see what it takes. I have never modeled before, had no experience, so I was nervous and excited all at the same time... I contacted a local photographer who I found off Model Mayhem and asked if they would be interested in shooting a SG set for me... to my amazement they knew exactly the style I was looking for and what I wanted.... IN CASE YOU DIDNT KNOW THIS PHOTOGRAPHER WAS ANATOMIK. I was sooooo lucky to find someone who's talent impressed and awed me. I have been with them from the beginning and hold them near and dear to my heart... after all it is because of his talent and our work together that I became a suicide girl. So I kind of owe it to him and his wife for showcasing who I am and what I am about.... and of course, doing it with class!!!! The first set we shot was a really fun balloon set... I wanted something that gave insite to who I was without having to be serious.... I am sooo not a serious person... but rather a giddy spaz who loves to have fun......So if you dont remember here is the first set I submitted.......
The set was a bit long... but I got lots of incredible feedback as to how to improve for my second set. I was blown away with the comments I was getting and the support given from the other SG and members. Not to be sappy but it was awsome to find a place where people loved everything about me that I have hated... or have pin pointed my entire life. It was incredible to know that people loved me for who I was and to know that it was ok I had tons of ink and it was ok that I like to stand out and be differnt from the norm.
So my second set submitted was my first set to be accepted and to hit the front page!!!! On Dec 12th 2008. It was my Lakeview Park set, which was shot with Anatomik at a local park near their place. So this was an interesting set to pull off... we went to the park at 5:30ish in the am so that we could get there before all the locals got there and began their day at the park, as it was summer. We had to deal with an occasional dog walker...at which case I just took a dive in the weeds. Hahahaha. I also am pretty sure the old guys across the water, who were morning fishing got quite a view... but hey... they didnt tell on me... so I didnt care!!!
You have no idea how excited I was to be a SG... I know everyone says that... but honestly.... I did this thinking... hmmm I have never modeled before... I have never taken a single nude image..... and I will just try this out.... so to be accepted so quickly I was estatic.
I then submitted a New Years set in Jan....
and shortly after a Styx set which was previously shot before it got to cold out.
Neither of these were excepted... but that happens from time to time... and besides practice makes perfect and the more I was shooting the more I was learning. When I do a set... a lot of my thoughts and creativity go into making the set come together so I was not totally bummed because I was still getting to be artistic and creative and got some really awsome shots for my portfolio from these sets. I also began to learn that it was easier and easier to get naked and show off my body as I was growing to accept who I am.
I then decided I was going to go back to my roots of being my bright... bold....colorful self and show my love not only for the 80's but for music and video games..... I am such a dork and love to pretend rock out while playing guitar hero.... so why not show that in a set??? Hahaha! This set was accepted on March 2nd 2009. It was again shot by Anatomik.
This was honestly such a fun set to shoot... I was laughing the whole time, and I was hoped it would show in my images. I also got told in a lot of comments, after this set came out, that I was holding the guitar backwards.... to which I explained... nope.... I am right handed in everything I do... but for some reason with a guitar... video game or real... I am left handed... I feel I can move my fingers quicker this way... I dont know hahah!!!!
Throughtout this process of being on SG... my love for taking pics has also come back to me. I use to have a great passion for photography and worked in a studio for a long while... so I told myself try self shooting a set.... to which my Fun In The Tub set was put together..... If you dont remember this one... here are some images... yes this was self shoot and I was pretty happy with how it turned out....
Out of all the sets I have shot... this set was my personality the most. I am such a dork and a complete goofball and I think being alone and shooting this myself I was able to portray that the most in this set.
Moving along to my next live set..... Which was on the front page on July 2nd 2009.... With Under My Umbrella.... Anatomik and I really wanted to try to show a different side to me that had not been shown in a set yet... so he went a little more artistic with their shooting... I went back to my natural haircolor and made sure to not wear bright makeup... this was a more natural....dark.... artsy set.... and I was soooo sooo happy with how it turned out!
I then submitted a set for the "sexy without trying" contest.... For my Ivy Wall set... I wore nooooooo makeup and was as simple as possible.... I was kinda ify about showing you all myself without makeup as I am one of those people who can not leave home without it on. But to my surprise... the way Dan shot this set... it turned out really fun and pretty and the Ivy wall greens went really well with my pink inbetween stages hair.
Then I had the oppurtunity to work with my first staff photog... Brooklyn. She was making a trip to Chicago and I could not pass up the oppurtunity to not only work with her but to meet her.... she is soooo positive on this site and her work never fails to amaze me so it was a given we work together. We got along sooooo well and we ended up shooting 3 sets.... We got to shoot in some really cool locations and I can honestly say I hope me and this girl work together much much more in the future whenever we are in the same area!!!! Such an amazing girl!
So we put out Mystify.....which is still in MR... it has got amazing reviews and comments and it well loved.... so I really do not want to take it down yet.... still keeping hope for a bit longer. I think Brooklyn did a really good job capturing my softer side in this set... it turned out really girly and pretty!!!!
And lastly.... which brings me to my last live set.... which went up on the front page Saturday.... the 12th...which was kinda cool... a year to date... and went up the exact same day as my first live set... kinda cool to me!!!! Was a set I got to shoot with Lorelei. She was passing through Chicago on her way home and asked if I wanted to work with her... ummmmm are u kidding me... do you even need to ask... OF COURSE I DO.... HAVE YOU SEEN HER WORK. I felt really comfortable with Lorelei....which may I add is such a cute lil adorable girl....who brought her dog, Baby, along... and you knew me and animals.... sooooo much fun. I felt Lorelei did a really good job showing me at my most intimate up to this point... up close and personal.
In the past year... I have seen myself grow from an insecure girl...who doubted herself into someone who is happy that she stands out and isnt the same as everyone else. I have seen myself grow more confident in my pictures and sets and I see myself growing as a model on this site. I have found a community in which I love being a part of.... I love participating in... and I love supporting what it stands for. I can only hope as time progresses I become an even bigger part of this site. I think it goes without saying... you know who you are... but those of you who have stuck by me from day one deserve a huge huge thanks!!! So much love and appriciation goes out to you. Also, those of you who continue to stand by my work.... deserve much love as well... I can not thank you enough. I love being able to be creative and show you a part of me at a certain time in my life...with each set.... I can only hope you continue to enjoy me, who I am and what I stand for!
I have sooo many more things to show you... I have a few sets in the works...being edited... so stay tuned!
Kraven is just getting started I hope!!!!!
KEEP ROCKING!!!!!! MUCH LOVE!!!!!! HUGS AND KISSES!!!!!!
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