This depression is a strange thing to deal with. Most of my days, I don't feel like doing anything. Not even watching tv, or playing video games, things like that. But then there are weird days like today, where I feel something like motivation. It's not quite there, I'm not quite feeling the urge to be proactive, but it's... it's the ghost of motivation haunting me. How sad is it, that a feeling like that is a weird day? I just wish that I knew how to take that ghost and resurrect it into proper motivation. Something good in my life would definitely be a good start. It doesn't have to be big, it just needs to be a win of some kind. This last year has been a series of colossal failures that have me further down the depression hole than I ever have been. So yeah, seeing the ghost of motivation down here kind of makes for a weird day. But I guess it can be seen as hopeful? Maybe?
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hughjanus:
Hey man. I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember and depression for the last 18 years (at least). These videos (and more), have helped me deal with life: "We Are All One and Our Reality Is An Illusion" https://youtu.be/dmuEZKn47sA ; Alan Watts, "It's Just a Show" https://youtu.be/jldHW2xKBao ; "The Tao of Philosophy..." https://youtu.be/bE6mRYypmJY .
wolfwood1203:
@hughjanus Thanks, I'll check those out. I appreciate the thought, I really do.