for some reason I've had to push myself a bit t'get through the week, and felt fairly exhausted most eves from it
maybe I'm fighting something off, maybe it's the weather or season, who knows *shrugs*
a few of the days the pains I'm used to were more intense than they normally are, which isn't unusual when I'm ill - but since I wasn't outright ill, it was odd
*shrugs*
who knows - not as if I'm going to go see a doctor or anything of the like when I wouldn't and haven't done so for far worse things!
I suppose it's suffice to say that painweek has continued/worsened *sighs* - as the song goes, "what a drag it is getting old", though you won't see me taking meds even for a headache 'less I'm nigh unable to function without ( which is very rare )
ANYways and otherwise, kept busy as work and distracted at home when able
my eldest's birthday was yesterday, nearly a teenager! *whew* - though from texts with the ex it sounds like things have become semi-worse in her home ( she lives with her mother and brother who at the least don't help, but more often hinder :( *sighs* )
aye, if I could afford to and if I was able, I'd get them the 7 hells outta that place, if only for the welfare of my daughters
their mothre is a good mothre, but that household isn't good for the girls nor her...
they're the only local family I have - and, by gods, the only family I would go out of my way for other than those I consider family but are unrelated by blood or relation/connection
I know, some think that's odd or hateful or [place insulting term here], but I care for the ones close to me, the ones I trust and have trusted, the ones who were there for me in hard times as well as good, the ones who didn't deny me, blame me, insult me, nor assault me
unfortunately a great many of blood-relation do not fit that criteria, many relatives - particularly close ones - having a bad history of many of these things which made them untrustable to me and mine for a good many years now
say and think what you will, I may love them and they are relatives always, but what I consider family they fall short of
with that said, trust me that I would go out of my way for and if I could do more for, I surely would, those that are my true family
including, of course, my daughters and their mothre - there may be no love in the couple/romance/etc kind between the ex and I, but she is the girls' mothre and has become a friend and close confidant in the times since we parted, geo-physically the closest friend I have and the only one I see and talk to with any regularity
we will never be more than friends, no matter what some onlookers have said or likely think, but family, yes, she has become that ( whether she likes the idea or not *laughs* )
even now I'm exhausted from the workday and workweek alike - and still have a couple hours to go on the 'morrow...
I'd crash way early, but I have grocery delivery I'm waiting on, which could arrive any time in the next 3hrs yet :)
but, then again, if I did crash that early, gods know I'd be up just as early in the pre-mornin' and likely dead-tired by the time I do pop into work for a bit
...and the remainder of the weekend, for that matter
oh well and so be it, I'm still hoping this season holds out a bit longer before it succumbs to the chill of autumn and the bleedin' painful wintertide *sighs*
I was never built for, nor liked, wintertide - even before my physical damage made it more the painful to be out in the cold even for a li'l bit :(
but I'll be here for awhile yet, the southernmost that I've ever lived - not that that's saying much, since I'm well in the upper-half of the midwest US and've never lived farther than a mile from the border of this state westward, where wintertide weather was worse yet - go figure!
Farethee well for now, Lovelies and Gentlefolk, keep Living Life - and stay wonderfully warm!
twittage::
8/19 : fairly straightforward dream(s) of a future where cloning is commonplace... which segued into cloned superspy conspiracy on spaceship dream
8/21 : was thinkin' of a late-eve walk under the weirdly glowing sky... then weather sirens went off in two directions - yep, make it WAS, not is
8/22 : the Delifenders : Luke Cake, JaffaCake Jones, Daredevil's Food, & Iron Fish ( feat. Elektra Nachos )
8/24 : "hello, sir, I'm calling about your current health provider, according to our records we may be able to offer you better rates than what you're currently paying..."
highly doubtful, since I have none *click*
- I shouldn't be too surprised, after all I received a similar call about my "current auto insurance provider" just days ago, though they hung up after I finally asked 'so, you're going to buy me a vehicle and pay the insurance since I currently have neither?'
watched recently :
via rental/streaming:
Dream A Little Dream
Ghost Adventures (9th Season)
The Defenders (1st Season)
ownedflix:
Saban's Power Rangers
Attack Of The Killer Tomatoes
One Crazy Summer
Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol 2
Jason Bourne
Mimesis: Night Of The Living Dead
Warlock
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose, AK/GOT (OOP)
unusualist - I have yet to find a religion and/or spirituality that fits my own personal beliefs... other than, of course, the fact I am a (fallen) god.