Hey,
I will try to get some 5s for today
1. I saw again some cute girls at the hospital.
2. Had a nice and quiet day at work.
3. I got my meds for 100 more days. O_O
4. I could leave my work 30min earlier
5. My mood is a little better than yesterday.
Im still confused about my thoughts and my life...
Again im not shure if my thoughts are cuz of my disease or just part my personality.
I wish the effect of my meds would still divert me. But again im fighting with myself about what is right an true.
Its always "just live your life". But without a target or dream or wish, for me it makes no sense.
I think my will or instinct to survive is not in a normal state. At least when my time comes i can do something good and right cuz im organ donor.
I will try to get some 5s for today
1. I saw again some cute girls at the hospital.
2. Had a nice and quiet day at work.
3. I got my meds for 100 more days. O_O
4. I could leave my work 30min earlier
5. My mood is a little better than yesterday.
Im still confused about my thoughts and my life...
Again im not shure if my thoughts are cuz of my disease or just part my personality.
I wish the effect of my meds would still divert me. But again im fighting with myself about what is right an true.
Its always "just live your life". But without a target or dream or wish, for me it makes no sense.
I think my will or instinct to survive is not in a normal state. At least when my time comes i can do something good and right cuz im organ donor.