They say the heart wants what it wants. So does the penis, but no one ever says that. It would be undignified.
I am frustrated today. I came to a self-identified inclusive community of freaks, nerds, and weirdos, only to often be treated by those who claim to embrace freaks, nerds, and weirdos as some sort of freak, nerd, or weirdo.
I think my problem is I never know the shibboleths. I mean here's my thing: In spite of what the small slice of myself displayed on this site might portray, I am not a social cipher. I am well-liked in my workplace and have had a number of very close friends over the years, I've done all right with women until about the last year or so, I'm moderately successful in my career and to a certain extent have my crap together.
But everybody sets their boundaries up different places and it seems I'm always over or underestimating them. And it's not like I only err on the shamelessly forward/aggressive side either, I just as often have to be dragged out of my shell by people who genuinely seem to like me and enjoy my company (both women in the romantic/sexual sense, and both genders in the broader social sense).
But for whatever reason, I have trouble finding the fairway... either too friendly or too shy. However un-counterculture it may be (and thus implicitly un-Suicide Girls), I do want to get married, settle down, start a family. But I'm at the point where some of my friends have KIDS who are starting to date, and I'm not getting any younger.
Anyway, while vexed and sexually frustrated, I am overall well. How are you?
I am frustrated today. I came to a self-identified inclusive community of freaks, nerds, and weirdos, only to often be treated by those who claim to embrace freaks, nerds, and weirdos as some sort of freak, nerd, or weirdo.
I think my problem is I never know the shibboleths. I mean here's my thing: In spite of what the small slice of myself displayed on this site might portray, I am not a social cipher. I am well-liked in my workplace and have had a number of very close friends over the years, I've done all right with women until about the last year or so, I'm moderately successful in my career and to a certain extent have my crap together.
But everybody sets their boundaries up different places and it seems I'm always over or underestimating them. And it's not like I only err on the shamelessly forward/aggressive side either, I just as often have to be dragged out of my shell by people who genuinely seem to like me and enjoy my company (both women in the romantic/sexual sense, and both genders in the broader social sense).
But for whatever reason, I have trouble finding the fairway... either too friendly or too shy. However un-counterculture it may be (and thus implicitly un-Suicide Girls), I do want to get married, settle down, start a family. But I'm at the point where some of my friends have KIDS who are starting to date, and I'm not getting any younger.
Anyway, while vexed and sexually frustrated, I am overall well. How are you?